Went to Plaza Starbowl to bowl today.
Quite interesting.
I know u all dunno wad i talking de la.. all the bowling stuff.. haha.. but nvm.
The lane is weird.
Its bone dry at 1,2,3 board and become oily starting from 4th board. So i played straight down bewteen 1-3 board.
You know wad does that mean? It means that my ball is just travelling 1-2 inches away from the gutter, any minor mistakes means a gutter ball.. haha, but strange enough.. not much mistakes leh.. only twice got into the gutter if i rmb correctly.
But everytime break too early la.. sian diao.. need to increase ball speed so much then can break properly.

nvm.. then went to r3c to 'activate' my stupid pass after that.
ya.. so while i was waiting outside HR office.. then theres this indian uncle beside me filling in an application form.

So we started talking.
I learn that he is here to apply for a job, as a security officer la.
He then went on to say that he tried to apply for security officer at some other hotels, but they onli accpet ppl under 35 yrs old. and he is 51 liao.. so noone wants him.
Eh.. so poor thing sia.. the retirement age is wad ah? 65 issit? dunno la.. 60+ de.. then at 51 cannot work liao? isnt the singapore gahmen promoting the dunno wad senior citizen back to work thinggy or wad eva.

Then he went on to say, last time after his NS, he became a stock broker.. then he say they got alots of year end bonus de. The basic salary is low la.. around 2.5k, but they have 15 months yr end bonus leh. 15 months.. imagine.. 2.5k x 15.. how much is it? more than 30k liao.. not bad sia.. then he say can go for long holiday.. haha!

Anyway.. i wished him luck in getting the job.. haha.

Walked around in swissotel and realised that how huge it was.. wow man..

anyway.. i m going back to work on this sat.
oh well..
life is going to be wake, eat, comp, work, sleep.. wake, eat, comp, work.. and it repeats.
not bad..
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take it as a beautiful nightmare
wake up and forget

sick again huh?
take care..

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Found an unwanted personal bowling ball in yishun safra today.
Its a Brunswick Zone Red Alert Special Edition ball.
I wonder how much it cost.
Anyway.. the Span of the ball is just right for my palm, just that the finger holes are sightly too big.
Why is it unwanted?
well.. cos its spoilt.
The surface is worn out.. must have been quite an old ball.
Then there is this crack on the ball. Around 15 cm in length, and around 3 mm wide. A crack on the bowling ball!
Omg.. so poor thing!
The stupid owner just dumb the ball there when its spoilt?
Actually i wanted to bring it back, but too heavy la.. need to carry 2 balls leh, and i have no proper bag to carry 2 balls.
If i go back the next time and still find it there.. i will bring it back sia.
So poor thing la.. kena dumped by the owner.
Anyway, i tried the ball.
Seem to be more reactive than my plastic ball huh? I tot it was also a plastic spare ball..lol.
Anyway.. the hook it created was that huge.
Laydown at 30th board, then send out and break at 3rd board. Wow..
If i can get it fixed, i have a free ball sia.. haha but i doubt it can work properly la.. haha.

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Going to r3c tml.. to get my pass fixed!!!

I have 1 month to forget about u.

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wa lao.. wads wrong with me?
I cant believe that this shit happened..
I lost to prissy in a bowling game??
HUH??
Nvm.. she got 20 pins handicap tats why can win me la.. hahaha.
Sian.. if i win her ah.. she need to give me $2 leh. Haha.. we bet money de..lol.

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I know its bad of me, to be discouraging you from going there.
But some how i felt, i need to..
sai.
erps.

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Its up to u now.
Make the decision.
I must say, personality difference is hard to bridge. IMO, its extremely difficult. But nothing is impoissble, u will nv know unless u try.
U have to try! No use giving up without trying!

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Haha.. i ask ppl to keep on trying. Dont give up without a fight. Persist on!
Yet.. i din even try. Surrendered without a fight, without firing a shot.
Dumb huh?
Sometimes i wonder what in the world am i doing.
I m opposing myself?? wth..

what a perfect scene it was.
Like a family.
Yet, i can only dream of it.

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Soon it will be time to say good bye.
Painful it maybe, but its definitely worth it.
After all, the true meaning of love is to see the person u love happy, isnt it?
If what i hope for, tats to see both of u together, really come true.
Then my horoscope prediction is correct.
It says, By the end of the month, you will be in a state of great bliss.
i believe the great bliss that they are talking abt is me feeling happy for u.
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I believe there will be a sudden change of event.
I said smt to him, less than 5 words.
I guess this has make him realise how much u mean to him.
And i believe he will cherish u more than ever.

I guess everything will take place tonight.. i await ur good news.

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why do i feel so agitated?
Cant sleep after u told me what happen.
I know its completely non of my problem, but.. there is a sudden rush of emotions inside me.
How can he do this? from my pt of view, its completely wrong!
How can he hurt you? Bringing tears into ur eyes.

I felt pain too.
maybe.. cos i know how u felt then.

I believe it will be over soon.
Hang in there.

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After bowling, went back home to eat then went to queensway to shop.
Spend $94 on 2 set of clothings..lol. Then $3 on laksa and $1.20 on drinks. Wow.. its almost $100 gone in 1 day!

Nvm.. i like wad i bought.. haha!
Only reached home at 10 pm la.. siao!

Disappointed with u perhaps. Darn.. why shd i be disappointed in the first place? Crazy..

U r sad. And i felt terrible too. why?
I just hope u can pass this phase quickly.. i know it suck. I have been thru this and survived it. U can do it too!

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amazing. I m up so early.
Abt 5 hours of sleep onli? i wonder how am i suppose to survive today.
Hm.. spend like 2 hours ytd penning down my thoughts on paper. 2 hours to write abt 200 chinese characters? wow man.. i suck.

Ok.. there is bowling later.
well.. for those who are not feeling well cos u r sick, rest well and dun attend cca!!

'when a ger likes someone, she becomes stupid'
LOL!

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After tonight's converstion, it left me with so much emotions.
i m going to try to pen them down if possible.

I have talked about how to detatch urself from someone emotionally. This is wad Daina called the Art of Detatchment. Useful indeed.. yet i have not mastered it.
Why do i still let little gestures, words and facts hurt me?
Maybe an emotional distance isnt enough? A physical distance is needed?
Sounds bad huh?
what to do? once bitten twice shy.

I guess i have become zhi bi lately huh? Jh say i Zhi Bi.. cos i love being alone. Yeah.. i feel so too. I just prefer to be alone sometimes.. cos its more peaceful? Not tat i m saying the ppl ard me is noisy and is disturbing, but sometimes, its good to enjoy some time alone.. so tat u have lots of time to think of many stuff.. sort out all feelings.

i was quite touched when u said ..'waiting for him .. '
dunno.. mixed emotions i guess..
he is the lucky guy.. man.. u gotta learn how to cherish.

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Terrible dream. I woke up thinking tat i m in 29 oct.. and wad a coincidence, it was also a sunday. Relived the past in my dream, it felt as painful as before.
"To dream that you are being rejected, signifies a lack of self-worth and alienation of others."
A dream interpretation obtained from some website.

Another boring day, nothing much to do today.
hm.. at least i have tml to look forward to. Bowling from 10-12, then have wednesday to look forward to, sentosa outing with 0806. And friday to look forward to, bowling again, shd be a friendly competition within the team ba.. not bad. Then, i have nth to look forward to liao.. sianzz.

Then in dec.. go train everyday? shd be ba.. i m just aiming for a 160 average at next yr A div.

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Thanks for tat piece of advice.
But sometimes, following the heart isnt right. I guess i was wrong to say tat it is always right to follow our heart.
I will not follow my heart, not this time.

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Marsh's nick: Nothing happen until u make it happen.
It sort of gave me a sudden gush of inspiration.
Why just sit here and waiting for things to happen? Get up and make things happen!!! Yeah!
Nvm.. i m still not going to do anything.

I have absolutely nothing to do. Sleep till so late, woke up and have lunch. Now i m sitting here, rotting infront of the comp. Wei Xiao Pasta just became more exciting. HAHA!
Hm.. i wonder if we can get the EXPO job or not. If tat guy doesnt call today, then we are jobless..lol. Nvm.. i still have my r3c to go back to.

I m playing yahoo chess now. Yea.. I-Chess my favourite board game. Sian.. its so hard to improve sia.

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Went back to school today to play bball with cherky, pager and hockie. Played with some J2s again, this time they are more skillful. But we still won them at last. Nice game. Played till it rained like crazy then hock and pager went home.

Cherk and I went to reading room to ka jiao marshie who is doing peer tutoring, physic.. haha! She was so super blur la.. and her tutor was a super shy guy..lol! I was doing some card trick with cherk's card when arthur lim came in and slap my head..lol.. no cards allowed in school. haha!

After her peer tutoring, the 3 of us went to eat then me and cherk went back to yishun. I had bowling and he goes home la. his hse in yishun.. haha. We talked alot along the way.. interesting conversation.. i always like to talk abt these stuff.. haha!

Today bowling, it is a self training. So they decided to make it into a competition. We split into 2 teams, the team with the lower average score will have to clean up the bowling store room. Sian.. anyway it was a draw today.

I bowled not bad, 142.25 average today. Ok.. and can u believe it.. its the best in the team if i m not wrong. So our team suck. It was pretty cool, spared a 5-10 and 5-7 split today. Super nice sia.. haha!

oh well.. i decide i shd learn how to play pool properly.. haha! can learn from cherk..lol..
and as for going back to rccc.. Dom told me i can just go back anytime..lol.. cool man.. shd be going back there soon.. yay!

Time to keep myself busy huh? so perhaps i can forget abt everything and everyone.

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Bowling today.
The coach gave us a stack of paper filed nicely in a plastic file.
This is the best bowling reference notes i have seen so far. I have read every single bowling reference book in the CP library. Its better than all the reference books all add up tgt.. haha!
It teaches us how to battle some lane conditions, nutrition for bowlers, how to train a bowler's mental condition, impt details about our stances and release. Sparing systems and adjustments tat we shd make. Blah blah.. wonderful!
And this booklet is only for coach reference..lol!

Ohhh.. today is the release of the PSLE results. I wonder how did my dear campers do.. haha! I know jason got 232.. not bad sey! My grp de ppl so pro.. sure did well de.. haha!

Anyway.. hockie is pestering me for his grp, DITTO's picture. I haven upload into the comp yet la. Cant believe he love his grp so much sia.. haha.

Stay away from me. Shoo!
I dun wanna go thru this shit again.

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Two thing i did today: went to sch for clearing and reflections and went to JM's hse for bridge.
Tats about it.

I have been learning card magic for like a week. I know how to 'read ur mind', pick ur card out from a full deck without looking, and vanish a card infront of u. Magic..
I wish i can make u disappear with a snap of my fingers. So i wun be thinking of so much stuff. Why did you appear at the wrong time? In the wrong situation?
Perhaps the problem lies in me. Make me disappear.. or at least vanish my heart and dun make it reappear. i will be better off that way.. i guess.

i doubt anyone know wad i m talking abt.. nvm..

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SL Camp ended today.
Sad.
Had a great time with my group. I was so touched sia.. cos they played with me today! Wacked my head.. messed my hair.. tickle me like siao! They also gave me sweets!! Wa.. compared to ytd morning, it was quite a major change :D

Great camp indeed. Its funny la.. the p6 kids thought is tat, if a guy hits and talks to a girl, he likes tat girl..lol! So xiao jun started asking how many couples are there in my class. We said one.. xx and J only ma. Then she din believe..lol.. she tot marsh and I also couple.

Then during J and xiao chen's Science Experiment, i was to perform some card tricks la. It was sort of impromptu la.. we only decide to add it in just before the science exp show started. Nervous sia.. but at last xiNA accompained me down to perform one of her trick also.. haha! fun sia.. not as scary as i tot..lol!

I wanna talk about hockie. He is the permanent GF for his grp. And his grp comprise of 4 girls and no guys..lol! And his 4 girls are so quiet de.. haha! They also super shy la.. especially a girl called CQ. She is p5 and so super small size la.. haha! Then when Sp and Javier not around Hockie is like a daddy bringing his 4 daughters around.

He is like a very caring dad actually, but just din know how to express himself properly. He din know how to be more gentle.. like a mother or a girl la. So it sort of scare his 'daughters' lol!! But he is trying very hard la. SP also tried very hard to make them more enthu and i guess her effort paid off. The group was much better in day 2! haha.. its so touching to see that la..lol.

CQ even played a trick on hockie! Hockie stood up from his seat to do smt la.. and CQ placed a pack of twisties on Hockie's seat and hockie sat on it!! LOL!! So cute la.. haha!! And she also gave SP a card and on SP's paper during the reflection time, she wrote only one word, 'caring'. though its just one word, but i was so touched when i saw it.

And my grp rocks too!!! They are super independent. Marsh and I just left them to play their art attack thing and we went back to LT 5 to do stuff also can. Super sia! Its just great la.. totally great!

anyway.. on hockie's piece of paper.. his campers wrote tat he is fierce! lol.. and all the comments abt him are so negative..lol!! But i guess he also treasured the bond.. cos he actually attempted to look for tat slip of paper when he lost it..lol!
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You asked, how long must a guy/girl like u b4 u feel tat he is serious abt it. Tats a common qn i guess.. but i was tongue tied when u asked me. Cant really think of a proper answer actually, cos i din really care abt time tat much. As long as he/she showed u enough care&concer, and u feel with ur heart tat he/she is serious, then he/she is serious. If u feel not then its not. It all comes down to feelings. But time is also a factor too.. it cant be too short of course.. i guess a period of 2 months is reasonable. I hope tat answers ur qn.

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AIR SUPPLY

Here I Am

Here I am playing with those memories again
And just when I thought time had set me free
Those thoughts of you keep taunting me

Holding you, a feeling I never outgrew
Though each and every part of me has tried
Only you can fill that space inside

So theres no sense pretending
My heart its not mending

(chorus)
Just when I thought I was over you
And just when I thought I could stand on my own
Oh baby those memories come crashing through
And I just cant go on without you

On my own Ive tried to make the best of it alone
Ive done everything I can to ease the pain
But only you can stop the rain

I just cant live without you
I miss everything about you

(chorus)
Just when I thought I was over you
And just when I thought I could stand on my own
Oh baby those memories come crashing through
And I just cant go on without
Go on without
Its just no good without you

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Carpe Diem Camp!

Our S.L Camp! Wow.. its a 2 day, day camp. reached school at 7 in the morning to get ready all the logistics and for briefing. The kids arrive at 9am, was quite nervous at first, while waiting for them.

So they came in.. ard 25 of them and we split them into groups of 4 or 5. Small groups but fun. Then we, the group facilitators intro ourselves. I m James! U know.. my name is James and thru out the whole day ppl call me James. Then marshie Lam xin yi is known as Jessie! And Joseph is Meowth. Guess wad.. our group name is Team Rocket. The baddies in pokemon series.. haha! So it explains our strange names..lol.

At first, it was abit weird la. They just sat in a circle.. abit dao dao.. sian sian.. then i realised how my OGLs felt when they took us for J1 orientation..lol.

Anyway.. we were able to get them to intro themselves.. and play ice-breaking games. Our grp, Team Rocket have an alliance with Ditto! Tats hockie, Javier and SP's grp.. haha.. and we had a team cheer too.. not bad sia.

It was quite fustrating at first.. cos they quite reluctant to become active and shout cheers.. but after sometime.. things became so good..lol. TR is the best sia.. i think the grp which becomes active fastest la.. haha.. becos we have Marsh as our GF.. she and the p6 kids at same frequency so can communicate well!!

Then after lunch the kids were able to sit down and tell us abt their school, their experiences.. blah blah.. many other stuff. Chatting like friends sia.. not bad. Quite touching actually, cos at first they treat us like strangers and now can talk with liao.. haha!

Tml is the second and last day. Its gonna be really fun!!

Ahem.. i did a card trick today and somone was rather impressed by it..lol!

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SL camp tml.. i wonder how it will turn out. Months of planning.. many days of dry runs. I din really do lots of stuff.. lots of planning were done by the class leaders.
Hm.. looking forward to have some fun for the next 2 days. haha.

Then after dat go back RCCC work.
Money is secondary, or even tertiary.
Primary is to prevent myself from rotting at home sia. haha.
secondary is to gain more experience.

Hm.. read the newspaper, theres a report saying smt abt ppl dying in sleep.. hm.. interesting.

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If everything is what i think it is,
then i felt so cheated.

Haven lost sight of the island yet.
All i did was just no to look in tat direction
and i tot i had leave it behind.
i m just fooling myelf.

U may mean nothing to somone, but u actually mean everything to someone else.

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A well-known speaker started off his seminar by** *
holding up a $20.00 bill. In the room of 200, he asked,
"Who would like this $20 bill?"
Hands started going up.
He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you
but first, let me do this. *
He proceeded to crumple up the $20 dollar bill. *
He then asked, "Who still wants it?"
Still the hands were up in the air.
Well, he replied, "What if I do this?"
And he dropped it on the ground
and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe.
He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty.
"Now, who still wants it?"
Still the hands went into the air
My friends, we have all learned a very valuable lesson.
No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it
because it did not decrease in value.
It was still worth $20. *
Many times in our lives,
we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt
by the decisions we make and
the circumstances that come our way.
We feel as though we are worthless.
But no matter what has happened or
what will happen, you will never lose your value.
Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased, *
you are still priceless to those who DO LOVE you. *
The worth of our lives comes not in what we do or who we know, *

but by WHO WE ARE.* *
You are special**
Don't EVER forget it.*

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I din mean to distrust u.. well.. sorry. Tats all i can say.
As for why i tot u did it on purpose.. its a long story.

i m just so confused now. So unsure of myself and everything. so fustrated.. so full of hatred.
"why is it like tat?" this qn is always in my mind.
Why do i care so much when i know i shdnt be doing so. i know its wrong.
why things cant just go right for once in my pathetic 17+ years of life.
why cant i leave sight of tat island and get lost in the ocean?
how long will i take.. how hard can i paddle to lose sight of it?
i tot i lost sight of it today.. but i was wrong, it was still there.

Horoscope for month of NOV:
November
The month of November finds you riding in the front car of an emotional roller coaster. The highs take you up above the clouds but the lows take you down into the depths of intense pain and sorrow. Keep in mind that the only way you can get off this ride without losing your lunch is by finding peace and stability within yourself.By the end of the month, you will be in a state of great bliss.

quite true.. the front part. As for the last sentence.. judging by the current shit i m in.. sorry.. i think its more like i m in great shit than great bliss. we shall see..

oh well.. ignore everything and the world will be a better place.
nv really placed my ultimate A.O.D in use huh? i know i need to use it now.. or else i m dead.

i m dead tired now.. just let me sleep and nv to wake up. spare me from another day of torment.

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rotting at home isnt fun at all.
Spend sometime infront of the comp learning some lame card tricks.
Some tricks are super dumb la..zzz.. wad put the deck behind ur back and do smt to it. Lame sia.. as if ppl wun suspect u r doing something..zzz.

Then played computer games.. and stone infront of the comp.
My life during the holz is so inetersting.

Aiya.. shdnt have played so much bball. Now i m really sick la. Din know standing under the sun for so long can get cough and flu. Tats not the worst sia.. the worst is i m feeling hot all over my body. Not exactly a fever i guess.. but just super heaty. The air i breathe out is like a dragon's fire breath la.. roar!

sian..
i wonder wads going on sia..
hey.. sorry sia.. i m a curious being.lol..

nvm..

have been feeling weird lately. DUnno why also.. tats the major prob sia. Theres smt weird going on in me but i dunno what or why? Stupid la.. sian.. pls get out of my mind.. out of my heart.
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i taught u all the ultimate A.O.D ytd.. but i cant apply it myself sia.. tats why i said.. hard to apply it.. haha. Sian..

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Time to set out in my raft and leave the island
i wonder if i can get thru the waves this time?
I m quite confident actually..
tat i wun be pushed back by waves
tat i can get out in the open sea.
The currents shall bring me to the next island
i will be drifting for a very long time.. i guess.

Went back to school again for a last dry run for SL. Played basketball like crazy after that.. under the hot afternoon sun.. its killing me. Super sunburnt.. having flu and fever now.. i guess. who will care anyway..

went to SimLimSq to sign up for job as a sales assistant for cybermind. Also dunno if can kena picked or not. 30nov-3rd dec.. EXPO, IT Fair i think. from 11am to 10pm.. pay= $50 per day+commission. Not too bad..

we were sitting in the shade talking abt stuff today. Got to know u better i guess. Indeed touching to know tat her happiness is all tat matters to you. I guess tats what love is all about.

Brains or heart?
Time is not right?
a perfect opportunity, yet u hesitated.
What else isnt right?
I would have gone for it.. if i were in ur shoes,
if i m not in this state.

Art of Detatchment: The Final Chapter: Ignore Everything!
This is the ultimate skill tat i will be teachin u today.. A.O.D is passed down from my grandmaster Daina.. today i shall pass it on to the next generation.

Ahem.. let me explain.
The title is self explainatory. Just dun care abt anything! Block out any feelings u have.. stop thinking of it! Distant urself from who ever it is.. or what ever it is.
This is the ultimate skill.. if u can learn this u will be free from emotional struggles!

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They were talking abt heart.
To follow ur heart or brain?
well.. i always follow my heart.. cos i dun have a brain.. what to do?
I will nv regret when i follow my heart.. even if it turns out to be something bad.

Abt tat qn.. to choose to walk a path that u know will have a bad ending or not to walk at all.
well.. i will choose to take the path. Forget about the cliff that is ahead.. enjoy the scenry while u can. Who knows what will happen next? Maybe it turns out not to be a cliff ahead.. but a nice road.
If we dun walk the path, we will never get to enjoy the beautiful scenry tat is there for us.
If we never try, we never know. Well.. i always believe in that.

lets go back to talk abt heart. I prefer to have no heart at all.. so i wun feel anything. Dun mind not feeling happy or delighted. Cos at the same time, i wun feel hurt or sad. Isnt that great? yes!
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everytime when i start to walk away and turn back one last time to see..
u will be in tears (not for me of course)
it makes me run back again,
wanting to dry those tears and make u smile..
wanting to protect u from all harm..

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Tired.. tired.
SL dry run is making me really exhausted. I m yawning like crazy now la.. and its only 9 20pm.. still have 2-3 hrs before my usual bedtime.
And i got sunburnt. Cos we were conducting the activities all outside. The sun was scorching down on us. So i will become darker.. haha.

Went to OPSS , JM's BB room to borrow stuff for SL and trudged to JM's hse to dump all the items before heading to cherky's hse for bridging.

ok.. i m so so tired. how ah? sian..

U said smt about.. looking innocent.. i guess it sort of reminded me not to judge a book by its cover. Its extremly dangerous to judge ppl from what the portray themselves to be like. This may not be the real them.
This sort of remind me to be more wary of people, open my eyes bigger, look clearer.

wasnt very pleased with smt today.. but nvm. i guess its my own prob.

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sian..
i guess only JM knows wad i m mean.
Ytd went to Cherky's hse to bridge. went to JM's hse to bridge today. Going whose hse to bridge tml? Having fun is what all i m thinking of now.. ok i m lying.

Ahem..
i dun like ur attitude.. rather than just sitting there and complain later.. why din u get ur butt off the ground and do smt abt the wad u called.. ineffective way of carrying out of activities. I believe that i m not the only one who felt so. Ok.. i KNOW that i m not the only one who felt so.. ppl isnt happy but they just diam diam.
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Its not as bad as u think it is.
I believe that things will work out in the end.. as it always does.
It will be a good ending.. trust me.
well.. i will always be here for u.
feel free to talk to me if u want.. i will gladly help out.. if i can.
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your words, sharp as a blade.. pierce my heart.. i m bleeding again.

if feelings can change so easily, i wun be suffering now. we all wun be suffering..

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Ytd..

went to bowling by myself. I tot i suck. Super inconsistent. No feel at all. How did i manage to average higher than usual. 148.8 pts. Not a good average, but its better than the usual 131.0pt.

hm.. suspecting that the lane is conditioned for high scoreing.

Nvm.. later went to ZX hse play. Haha.. around 17-19 ppl went?
Played cards the whole day la.. nvm.. i like it. Bridge and Dai tee :D:D

Everytime partner tys will lose de leh.. jiat sai la!!

Reach home at around 12 30.. haha.. fun :D
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aye! dun skip meals for nothing la!!
Bad for health sia!
Rmb to eat proper meals!!
take care of urself..

ytd, as we were walking back.
i told u i love the night scenry,
tats why i stroll instead of walked,
to enjoy the tranquility.

After we said good bye,
stroll became a walk, a run.

why wasnt i enjoying the night scenry?
I realised that i wasnt enjoying the night scenry just now,
i was enjoying walking beside u.

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Idiot..

Stupid la.. instructions for SL water games.. its quite easy to do, but for some reason i m super irritated. And u din pick my call!!! ARGH! Am i suppose to do on the Dog and Bone or not? ARGH!

I was quite disappointed. Then i asked myself why am i disappointed?
"why am i disappointed?"
The answer came to me straight away.. simple.
"cos i expect alittle too much"

sian.. expect too much in bowling sia.. wth la.

PPl get disappointed when their expectations are not met. So, rule number one: Do not have high expection.

I wonder why cant i type chinese in here. I mean..maybe i dun have the stupid chinese software inside the comp ba.

Darn.. i think i can express more of myself in chinese than in english.nvm.. who cares.

was at the music school today and there is this father and mother with their daughter asking one of the teachers stuff abt their daugther starting to learn piano. Well.. their daughther is 8 yr old.. and they asked if it is too late to start learning.

the reply was "nothing is too late"

sad to say, it wasnt really true. Some stuff are just too late.. too late.. too late..

back to learning piano at 8 yrs old. I think its not the best age to do so. It shd be around 4 or 5.

I came into contact with music when i was at around 4 or 5 yrs old. Some stupid playig with percussion instruments class in yamaha back then. Then went into organ and got into piano when i was 10. quite late too huh?

Now i m still playing piano la.. ashamed to say i suck.

no patience i guess.. after so many years still no patience. wth.

Watched wei xiao pasta today on youtube again today. It can only remain an ok drama la.. doesnt have the X factor to captivate me. Its definitely not addictive at all. The only nice thing abt the show is ZDL's Bei Ji Xing De Yan Lei.. thats the only nice thing abt the show.. tats all.
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i wonder if u r ok. why is ur nick so weird lately.. hm..

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Dom also going back to RCCC and he is bringing friends with him!! yay!!

I rmb one of the reasons that i went to work last year. It was to forget .. i wonder if it works this time..

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I will be occupied tml.. yay!

Morning go see doc, the go bowling and then go party@zx hse!!
At least no so sian tml.. haha.

Tonight have to chiong do instructions for 4 SL water games. Tat time heard that they say only got 4 students sign up for the Camp. Ahem.. we need at least 30 plus la.. so pathetic sia.

Watch Youtube till i sian liao la.. the only interesting vid on youtube are the bowling vids.. haha!

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watched Cast Away just now. Nice show, with a super sad ending tat almost made me cry.

The lead actor said this "I've got to keep breathing. Because tomorrow, the sun will rise. Who knows what the tide could bring"

I think its quite inspiring.

I m rotting at home la.. luckily 14 nov and 16 nov need to go back to school, or else i will kill myself sia.

My bro got into the double science, double humanties combi in sec 3. Same as me sey.. physic, chem, SS+hist, Geog. And some more ah.. the class is same as mine leh. 3E4. Haha.. i guess ah, 2 years later he also will get into AJC la.. everytime copy me sey.. from P sch, till sec school.. haha.

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spend the day watching youtube. Wei xiao pasta.

Cant say its a nice show.. just average only. Cyndi Wang and Zhang Dong liang are the lead actor and actresses. Well.. they are singers, not actors.. so it isnt tat great la..hahaz.

Watched only 3 espisodes.. sian. Not a great show la, just need something to help me burn off my time. I m leading a super boring life right now..

its just meaningless.

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just came back from bowling. Went to the jalan sultan, plaza starbowl to bowl. Cos it only cost $1 per game from 10am-2pm. So shiok!

The lanes are so nice la.. i like its look.. definitely nicer than the lanes in hougang superbowl. The screen is so cartoon.. erps.. but one interesting thing is ah.. they can help u measure ur ball speed leh. My ball speed sucks sia.. it averages at around 16.5km/h =S

My highest ball speed is 20.4km/h and it happened to hit the pocket also la. The sound of the ball crashing into the pins is so nice sia. Gave me lots of satisfaction :D

Need to increase ball speed to at least 21km/h sia.. if not like so noob.

Nvm.. suprisingly i averaged at 140 today.. ok.. its not very good in fact its lousy, but i did have some improvements.. hahaz.

Ok.. i still have 10 more hours to spare.. what to do now?

Hey, dun always get drenched in the rains.
take care of urself, dun fall sick :D


i wanna take care of u..

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Sians.. nth to at home la.. i m gonna die if this continues. There are homework la.. but.. dun feel like doing la.. haha.

So.. i m gonna do wad i do every saturday la.. bowling.

ok.. what now?

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The OP today marks the end of PW. I guess OP was alright.. except for the Q&A part.. still did not reach my own expectations.

Then Daina, pager, hockie, cherky and I went to meet up with those who finished OP in the morning and we went to had dinner at Lot 1. Our orginal plan was to visit the Night Safari, but the weather wasnt great, in fact it was drizzling. So we hang around for awhile, deciding where to go next. But in the end, it was still night safari.

we manage to get a ticket price of $10 instead of the usual $20 for adults. It was fun inside, to be able to see all these animals close up. We walked for a couple of hours or even more before deciding to go home cos its already 11 plus.

A group of us took 138 from Mandai to Ang Mo Kio and splited ways. Pager, SP and I waited for 86, while Daina, marsh and hockie were at the opposite side bus stop waiting for their own bus.
Then we realised tat we missed the last 86 bus.. we missed it by 5 mins.. haha.. so pager's dad came and fetch us home.

well well.. sp so poor thing.. lol.. better not say wad happen if not later she kill me.. hahaha!

It was really fun, to be able to hang out with the class. It was enjoyable to be walking the trails and chatting with ppl from the class. :D

Had a wonderful time with 0806 :D
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sorry, i cant really help u.. cos i din know wad to do or wad to say.

Maybe i m just a good listener.. arghs.. i dun wanna be just a listener.. i also wanna be a good talker.. haha..

only u can help urself to get over the sadness, noone else can.

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it is very sad to have witness such an event myself. It reminds me of myself.
It isnt within our control.. we cant do anything about it.
It is upsetting to see things turn out this way.

I still hope tat friendship can be continued,
just like how it was in the past.

Clear the barrier in you, and i believe that u will be able to maintain this precious friendship.

It will be impossible to ask u not to be upset over such stuff. But i hope that u will be able to pick urself up again and carry on with your life just like b4 she enters your heart. Easier said than done.. i know..

hope u get over it quickly..
i hope tat the friendship can still be maintained..

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couldnt quite believe it.

I din get scared like that for quite some time already. But i was really frightened.. my whole hands are icy now.. i tot wad happened to u..

dumb me..

Well.. all the best for OP exams!!!

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Art of Detatchment.

Have to learn to master this art some time. It seems difficult, as it requires much mental strength and determination. Yet its a good 'tool' to have.

Hey.. teach me lehz!!! haha..

ok.. tml OP exam liao.. and it shall mark the end of PW!!! happy huh?
Not exactly. I used to hate PW.. we had a number of disagrements among ourselves. Yet when i realised that members in the grp will be going 'separate' ways.. a tinge of sadness hit me. afterall, we have been tgt for 6 months.. there are bound to be some bonding between grp members. Kinda sad actually..
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it all started with pw, and ended with pw.
if so, i m willing to do pw for the rest of my life.

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Had a nice chat with u from ytd.
I m glad that i can be ur listener. I guess i can only be a listener. Sorry that i wasnt able to totally understand how u felt. Cos i have nv been in such situation.. i can only understand what he is going thru right now.

Dun have to trouble abt it now. Cos i can see tat everthing will work out on its own.. everything will be fine very soon. No point being troubled or bothered by it.

Well.. i had a nice chat with you (different person) today. And i guess i do understand how you felt. And i totally agrees on the part on to show her care and concern is satisfactoty enough. I dun know how things will turn out in the end.. i m not god. As i have said, things can be positive or negative. We will never truly know till we try out. But as i have also said, always be mentally prepared for the worst. Not that i want the worst to happen to u, just that things are always unpredictable.. we shd be mentally prepared so we wun get hurt too much just incase the worst happens. But no matter how we prepare.. we still get hurt alot huh?

I have suggested 2 possible moves for you today. The choice is yours.. i cant help u make such decisions.

If you happen to be lost u can always turn to me. I can be ur listener.
I wish my both friends all the best ;)

Ya.. JH u wanted to talk to me abt smt huh? sorry.. today too stressed with OP stuff.. i will chat with u tml :D

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Its all about Pw and bball today. Then after that.. go home..zzz.. sian.

OP is in another 2 days, cant wait for it to be over. get over and done with. Then forget about everything.

Lim asked me today if i play I-chess or not? and am i good at it. Haha.. he recuiting ppl for his chess club la.. he gonna be the teacher in-charge of chess club next year..lol. I guess he must have know that i got 2nd position in the stupid AJC chess comp early this yr..lol.

Even thou i won a couple of school I-chess players.. but i still think i suck alot... ZZ

well.. tml have OP. Its the last practice ma.. haha, then exam liao.

Dun bother to read in bewteen the lines. There is nothing there already.

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went out with daryl and Kit hoong today to dinner and walked around town.
sometimes i m just too sensitive. sorry abt it.. i wonder if u can see this.. shd be able to.. its quite obvious.
only reach home at 10 30pm.. yawns..
maybe u were kidding abt the 8 45 thing. i tot pushing it back by 45 mins will do.. well.. sorry abt it.
It was nice to see 2 old buddies again. Rmb how we got to know each other when we were in sec 1.. haha.. and became so close throughout the 2 years of our lower sec life.
It drizzled today when i was in 86.
Then we 'parted' in sec 3 and 4.. cos we went into different classes and mixed with different people.now that the 3 of us meet again.. after such a long time.. the old feelings are not gone yet. I feel so at ease with them.. just like before, even thou it was a long time since we last talked.
rmb the first time i sheltered u with my umbrella when it was raining.
I can say anything i want, do any stupid thing i want, lame all i want!! haha!!
i rmb the second and the thrid time too.. i send u till the bridge.
Daryl asked, did u all find any super close friends tat u can talk to about anything in JC. I looked at him, he shook his head. KH shook his head. well.. i shook mine too. hard to find someone who u really feel comfortable with huh? i rmb how we shared secrets when we were back in sec school.. haha!
Rain.. it brings back so many beautiful memories of u.
I know there are people who i can talk to.. but there is still things tat i keep back. Maybe it just feels weird to share? Ya.. but i really love all those tt i can talk to now :D
i still rmb how beautiful u were.. and u are. Today i smell the familar fragance from u again.
Really enjoyed chatting with them, brings back old memories. Beautiful memories. we were so naive back then, nothing seem to can hurt us.
as i sat here and close my eyes, i tot i smell it again. for a moment i tot u were behind me.
Now.. we are plauged with so much problems. How i wish i can still be in sec 1 now. All fun, no troubles. Those were the nice days..
turned around.. saw noone. The smell is gone.. i was just imagining things.
we chatted quite some stuff today. KH.. still with his EL. Sng not interested in anyone in his own school. As for me.. i m just like a wandering soul.
when will my imagination turn into reality?
I believe that there shd be trust between a couple. If she really loves u, then she will not be distracted by other guys and stick to u. If one day she leaves u, then that proves tat her love for u isnt tat strong after all.
or does it meant to be a dream forever?
Love is like a butterfly, u hold it too loosely, it will fly off.. too tight, it will die. U gotta hold it with the right amt of strength for it to grow.
once again.. i love u, more with each passing day.
i love u.
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anyway.. went bowling b4 i meet them. Was bowling till half way when they need the lanes back for some school celebration la. It was monfort sec.. so they took up 12 lanes.. and i have no more lanes cos the rest are occupied.

Sian la.. i stood around looking at them play and saw the teacher in charge alone. Other teachers will be joining him later la.. but now he is alone. And he is using 2 lanes.. so i just went over and asked "do u mind if i join u? I mean.. since the lane is unused."

Then he say yes la.. cos he book by hour de ma.. noone use also must pay full price la.. so i bowled and chatted with him.

His name is vincent. After some time, other teachers arrived.. and i bowled and chatted with the other teachers, cant really rmb their names. But nvm.. i got to play 3 free games.. haha!! and interacted with different people today. so fun!!

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i din tell u this.. regarding wad i inferred, it may also be a thrid case: a combination of the first and second.

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aiya.. borrowed 'Gong' from stacy haven watch yet..zz.. later she kill me sia.. haha.

I wonder what i shd do during the holidays. I was rotting at home today. Well.. i guess the problem lies in me la. Tml got OP rehersal, and i haven practice yet. Got holiday homework.. dun even bother to dig out. Well.. not holiday yet ma.. do what holiday homework la.. haha.

Must lead a fulfilling holiday man.. if not i will really regret la.. sian.

So my holiday will be smt like that:

Homework
Bowling
Piano

Wa.. this is pathetic lehz.. only 3 activities ah? Was consider to go back to RCCC leh.. but abit lazy la.. haha.

Everyone like going to have a bz holiday leh.. except me sia.. thou there is bowling training 3 times a week and even up to 4 times.. but in the december is totally empty la.. only in nov then have.

They give some shit reasons, cos many ppl going overseas. Shit la.. must be the 'big heads' going overseas tats why they dun wan training.. sometimes ah.. i feel they do stuff for themselves only.. what kind of idiots i have as my excos sia. I mean only 2 of the excos.

I doubt anyone in the cca likes them la. Nv practice what they preach.. no brainers. And u kinda look down on ppl who are not as good huh? dun make me own u hor.. u may be better than me now.. cos u started bowling when u r like so young la! I have only been seriously taking lessons for only 14 weeks sia. Thou it started in May there are so many breaks in between la.. stupid.

nvm.. u watch out sey.. in the A div next year.. i will make u cry man.. or at least someone who is not as good will make u cry sia. HAHAHAH!!

erps.. why am i venting all my fustration here? haha.. they better not see this or else i m dead..lol!

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what a boring sunday. zZzZ
sunday.. it has been a week. its only a week.
ooOO, its so cloudy now.. better rain man.. i love the rain :D:D
seem like forever to me.
later got piano lessons.. zzz.. nv practice la.. my teacher 3 weeks nv teach me.. cos she wedding then honeymoon super busy so i 3 weeks nv practice her stuff.
29 oct 2006, some when past midnight, u spill the truth.
only prac my own pop songs, classical pop, and classical.. haha.
the truth hurts like hell.. as always the case.
Wa.. i realised that La Campanella by Liszt is super hard to play la.. sian. of course.. its beyond the grade standard la. Let u all hear wad it sounds like la.. haha.
i have nothing to say now.. just wanna let u know that u r always the one in my mind. I love u.



anyway, its classical music, i believe not many ppl will know how to appreciate it la.. haha. Nvm.. its damn cool if u can play it ok.. super cool la.

Its gonna take me another 1 year to learn..lol.. serious la.. 1 year..ZzZz
and another really nice one is Chopin: Op.25, No.01: Harp Study in Ab.
cool la.. hm.. but cannot find any clips leh.. sian.
nvm..

tml op.. ah!! another screwing up session.. haha!!

AND.. tml must go look for arthur lim for CWO!! Wa.. my first time kena such punishment leh. last time in sec school ah.. 4 yrs not even 1 time detention. Now, not even 1 year in AJC kena CWO, for playing bball in the MPH!!

The school build a MPH, but wun let us use the MPH.. erps right. MPH only reserved for school teams to use. ERPS la.. cos they scared that we spoil the MPH, as in the basketball rim and board. Eh.. build le dun use then let it rot ah? no brains!

Nvm.. so sian.. maybe go bowling tml? haha. Oh ya.. saw in the papers today.. there is this bowling alley, called Plaza Starbowl, they have some super promotion!

if u all wonder where is it at.. here is the address:
200 Jalan Sultan
#08-11 Textile Centre
Singapore 199018

its around northbridge road, i think.. i think.. haha.

from monday to sunday, 10am-2pm, $1 only, then 2pm-6pm, $2, then 6pm onwards is $3. hey.. thats super cheap la. At kovan ah its $2.20 from 10am-6pm for all days.. tats more than double of the $1. wow.. cool.. maybe can go there try.

The cool thing is their lanes are brunswick synthetic! AMF synthetic also can la.. as long as synthetic can liao la.. haha!

sian la.. nvm.. now go play piano.. haha. BYE!!!

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OP practice today. so screwed. =S
walked the same path with the same person but without the same feelings.
well.. after the prac went to play bball for awhile. Then went home, while ZINCCC and her gang went to J8 to eat.
It hurts so much today.. to know that i can only see, hear, smell but not 'touch'.
As usual, at around 3 plus on a sat, went to kovan to bowl.
all the memories came back to me during OP.. beautiful memories.
i guess i was really concentrated today. Cos there are no noobs bowling beside me.. haha!
Why does it hurt so much to see you?
Was quite suprised by my own average today. First 6 games, averaged at 153.67 pts.
yet i wanna keep seeing you. i wanna be hurt..
If my A div average is this ah.. i happy liao la.. haha!
i know i m dumb.. just let me be dumb forever.
Then din feel like going home, so carried on with another 4 games. Guess i wanst really concentrating on the last 4 games huh.. so in total 10 games average :146.6 pts.
i love u still, my dear..
Not too bad.. my normal is like 130, but today dunno why can bowl so well. must be the concentration la.
when will u come back to me?
Anyway.. had a new Hi-game. Hm.. actually not very high la.. its 204 pinfalls. 4 more pinfalls than my last hi game of 200 pinfalls.
or rather.. when can i go back to u?
well well.. found a new friend in the alley today.
waiting.. for tat day..
his name is Andy. He was beside me.. bowling. Abit noob cos dunno how to use the system all that.

Then he uses 13 pound house ball and house shoe. And he bowls alone. So at first i tot he is noob.

but then.. i realised he not bad sia. He hooked with a house ball leh.

This is the first time i ever saw ppl bowl with only 2 fingers. Middle and ring finger, then the thumb is outside.. i believe this is to create more revolutions on the ball for hooking.

And he used back-up balls for sparing.. impressive.

so.. he came to me and asked if i m a regular visitor and i said yes and we shake hands and intro ourselves.. and so i found a new friend..lol.
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Hm.. thanks man.. u know who u r. The one who chatted with me on msn today.
Thanks for all ur encouragements, i will climb onto my feet again. I will pass it on.. ;)

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went to cp today, then ran into this young lady tat sells pens for some charity organisation.
it was like a Q&A session.. i asked u answered and silence. maybe we have nothing to say to each other.. even as friends?
well.. this type of people, obviously out that to con ppl's money. 5 bucks per pen.. erps.. those type of lousy pen i can get for 50cents in popular la.
it took alot of courage for me to ask u if u wanna take the same bus tml..
anyway.. she stopped me and 2 friends and asked if we wanna buy or not.
perhaps i m just afraid of being hurt thats why i din dare to walk too close to u again.
the 2 no brainers.. erps.. took their money out. one say.. 'i only got 50cents', the other says' only got 2 bucks'.. so the lady look at me la.
everyday i asked myself why did i screw things up.
i said,'sorry no interest.'
regretted. regretting.regrets.
then her whole face become buay song sia. HAHA!
too late to say anthing huh?
'ur friend already wanna buy then u dun want?'
why cant u just get outta my mind..
so i just stared at her and said 'not interested'
i know i m going round and round saying the same stuff again and again
she bo bian la..lol..
well..
Hate this type of bloody ppl who does 'charity' la. "Charity"..
i m a bloody idiot.
5 dollars.. how much does the company draws, how much does she draw from it. in the end only 1 dollar go to charity la.. idiot, might as well donate my 5 dollars to some real charitable organisation..
why does 'gui ji' by jay chou plays in my head all the time?
all 5 bucks will go straight into those who need it.
shit.. why am i typing all these crap.
i m quite unhappy abt that asshole's attitude. And.. i bet she dun have permit to do this stuff in CP.
everytime i see u i just wanna grab u and hold u..
cos there is strictly no selling of such flags or donations in shopping centres de.. last time i was in PS doing this, kena chased by the security sia.
can we return to the past?
hope she just stand at that corner and get no ppl to buy from her la. idiotic ppl and company that they come from.
can the future be like the past?

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dont really mind failing chinese.
why do my eyes and mind wander off to someone sitting 2 seats infront of me.
compo is more difficult than the compre.. haha..
i tot i smell that familar fragance.. the smell that i missed so much.
nvm..
how can i ever convince you to accept me?
din really put in any effort, so i cant expect any returns.
i just wanna love and care for you forever.
so boring today.. no outing or anything after the chinese A levels..
now, i dont even have the courage to ask how r u. whats wrong with me?
so just went to play bball in school with afew other guys.
have so many things to say, but i know u wun listen.
Then after that had lunch with cherk.. in school.. erps.
i love u like crazy inside, i wanna express it, yet circumstances dun allow.
After chatting for sometime, i realised that we had some common points and views on certain topics.
everytime i wake up, i tot i was in hell.
haha..
why do every sad song remind me of u?
we are just 2 out of the many 'dumb' guys in class. lol..
i just wanna go back in time.
OP practice tml.. ZzZzzzz
i just cant forget you..
L.L lend me some Liszt and chopin book.. the pieces inside is super hard.. erps.. but bloody impressive if i can play it.. haha. Super fast.. nvm.. i love fast pieces.
why did things turn out to be like this?
anyway.. had this weird but wonderful dream this morning. shall not elaborate on wad this dream is. Dreams are just dreams.
why did i screw everything up, myself?
some interesting stuff that i stumbled upon today. This is the msn horoscope:
how can i ever convince you that i love u like crazy?
November 3, 2006
Some positive and interesting but very bizarre dreams could come to you tonight. They might also be erotic at times. These dreams are bringing to the surface suppressed desires that you may have had for a long time, so you'll want to look at them. They could shed some much needed light on a relationship, so consider this side of them carefully. The universe is sending you a message!
how can i ever get u back into my arms?
Its not erotic la.. the dream.. erps. i wonder what message the universe is sending me now.. i just dun get it. Hm..
if u happen to see this..sorry to say all these stuff. i know i shdnt..
erps.. well.. i know u think i m dumb to have read and believed in horoscope. well.. dun really 100% trust these stuff la.. just sometimes when i m lost, so just turn to them lor.
shdnt be loving you now..
haha!!
sorry again.. i cant help loving you.

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i dont wanna forget
dont wanna let go
dont wanna stop missing you
dont wanna stop loving you

i caused my own sufferings, yea.
cos i dun wanna say good bye.

why do i miss you so much now?
no words can describe now i feel.

everytime i close my eyes,
i see images of the past.
i love those days,
that we had together.

short it may seem,
yet unforgetable.

why do everything i see, hear, feel reminds me of you?

how did i manage to love so much
with a broken heart?

i remember you always dun bring an umbrella
always walk in the rain
fall sick after that.
take care of urself..
i wish that i can take care of u

i love u

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wow.. i feel so honoured and dumb at the same time.

See the oct 30 post.. the chunk in italics.. JH tot it was a poem and wanted to borrow it for her own use. Honoured cos ppl wants ur stuff.. stupid cos she prefer to borrow something i took 3 mins to think of, than the lyrics tat i took 30 hours to write..lol!!

wow.. impressive.. look at this..


GONE (N'SYNC)

There's a thousand words that I could say
To make you come home yeah
Oh, seems so long ago you walked away
and left me alone
and I remember what you said to me
You were acting so strange (mmmm)
and maybe I was too blind to see
That you needed a change

Was it something I said
To make you turn away?
To make you walk out and leave me cold (ooooh)
If I could just find a way
To make it so that you were right here
Right now..

I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
(Can't get you off my mind)
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I've drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
(touch your face)
But the truth remains..

You're gone..
You're gone.. (baby you're gone)
Baby you're gone
Girl you're gone, baby girl, you're gone..
You're gone..
You're...

Now I don't wanna make excuses, baby
Won't change the fact that you're gone, no, no
But if there's something that I could do
Won't you please let me know?
The time is passing so slowly now
Guess that's my life without you
(guess that's my life without you)
and maybe I could change my every day (yeah)
But baby I don't want to

So I'll just hang around
and find some things to do
To take my mind off missing you
(take my mind off missing you)
and I know in my heart
You can't say that you don't love me too
Please say you do

Yeeaah....

I've been sitting here
(sitting here)
Can't get you off my mind
(get you off of my mind)
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
(My best to be a man and be strong)
I drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
(wishing I could touch your face)
But the truth remains

You're gone..
You're gone..
You're gone
You're gone...you're gone.. you're....
Gone

Ohhh...

What will I do
If I can't be with you
Tell me where will I turn to
Baby who will I be
Now that we are apart
Am I still in your heart?
Baby why don't you see?
That I need you here with me
Oohhh...

I've been sitting here (sittin' here)
Can't get you off my mind (can't get you off of my mind)
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I've drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains
(the truth remains you're gone)

I been sitting here (sittin' here)
Can't get you off my mind (can't get you off of my mind)
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
(my best to be a man)
I drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains

You're gone..
You're gone..
You're gone
You're gone
Gone
You're gone..

But the truth remains
You're....

was trying to express something like this.. but wasnt able to do it. but this lyric totally described how i felt. impressive.. impressive..

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OP sucks. I have a new script liao.. need to re-memorise again. zZzzZ...

Bball rocks! Played bball with the class from after Op till.. 7 30 pm. Wow.. it got so dark that we can hardly see where the ball is la.. haha.. so fun :D

haven revise chinese and not planing to revise today. i m dead tired. lets do last minute studying for A lvl chinese.. haha!!

i saw someone offering his drink to someone after the bball match. Wow.. though it was just something minor, i tot tat scene was pretty sweet.
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i wanna turn back time,
so i can hold you once again.
and this time i wun lose you like i did before.

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Gone, like the wind

looking back in the past
we hang out till dusk
it was so hard to part
when the time is up

I remember you smile
I remember your smell
like the roses in the fields
it drive me crazy over you

i thought that everything will remain as it is
but i was so wrong to have said this

*Now that you are gone, like the wind
Come and go without a hint
all i can do is to just to dream
everything's not what it seems

*Now that you are gone, like the wind
Come and go without a hint
all i can do is just to think
how can feelings change in a blink.

Walking the same old path
where is my the other half?
the feeling isnt right
without you by my side.

now that everything have changed
nothing is the same
and it is driving me insane

*Now that you are gone, like the wind
Come and go without a hint
all i can do is to just to dream
everything's not what it seems

*Now that you are gone, like the wind
Come and go without a hint
all i can do is just to think
how can feelings change in a blink.

you are gone... like the wind.

(* = chorus)


ok.. another of those stupid song my me. Haha.. ya.. i m too free lately la... so everything came pouring out. lol.

ya.. i think this song sound weird? ya.. weird...

but nvm.. its from the heart.

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stayed up till now.. 1 am in the morning to do OP script and slides. still doing.. erps.. who ask me just now spend my evening playing all those games. ERPS. now have to suffer.

Ya.. chinese As is just 2 days away. well.. nv touch at all.. so even if i fail, well.. just got me to blame. And i need to suffer for another 6 mths in jc2 to see the hor fun.

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so tired of smiling..

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