My prelim grades: C C D E U
fantastic!
if u wanna know how it feels to be the bottom few in the class.. come ask me..LOL!
neh mind la..
failing math and getting sucky grade doesnt seem to affect me one bit.
cant even get A if u multiply my math score by 2.. LOL!

let talk abt other stuff.
went to bowl today..
oh my.. dunno what got me but i hit 186 average.
had four games above 200.. best being 256.
maybe good mood today la.. thats why bowl better.

a coach.. the one that spoke to me last time.. was there today.
he said i m very hard working..lol
and offered to guide me after A levels.
yay.

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thursday is the best day of the week!
Civics PE Break Maths school end.
for civics today we were suppose to play some sports tgt as a class but unfortunately it was raining heavily.. so charade was suggested instead.
sadly only 14 ppl were interested cuz the others are more interested in doing work.
and i thought it was suppose to be a class activity.

learned some folk dance during PE.
Entertaining to watch ppl dance funnily.. haha.
The teacher mentioned smt like it is opportunity for one of the classes of girls to get to know some guys cuz the whole class are female students.
its weird huh? how did they manage to slot twenty plus female into 1 class.. i wonder if this is random or deliberate.

anyways.. the class played captain' ball together after PE.
not exactly the whole class.. 24 out of 25 but its pretty cool already.
personally.. i recognise that we only have 24 students in class.
i believe a number of ppl will agree.

oh ya.. i fail math.
like nothing suprising.
if i write 'i pass math' u better check with me to see if that sentence contain any typo errors or not. i probably forget to put 'din' in between of 'i' and 'pass'.
got U again la.. just like the last time.

alright.. bed time.

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i think we should feel happy if our friends got better grades.

its will be damn stupid if u feel betrayed or sad cuz ur friend whose results was once on par with you now became better.

feel sad not cos ur friend left you there, but cus u chose not to progress.



such profound words coming out from someone who hasnt progress much.

me.



results are more or less reflective of how much effort and how effective are the efforts that you put in.

i mentioned effectiveness.

cuz more effort doesnt mean better.

efficiency is important.

take of example a man puts in 2x effort with 50% efficiency.. though giving in 2x effort he will still be on par with another person who puts in 1x effort at 100% efficiency.

therefore studying smart is important too.. not just studying really really hard.

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crap la.
i m on MC today.
not to pon school to be a supper mugger at home.

At ard 1 30am this morning i woke up with a bloody headache and a bad dream.
slept at midnight but haven slept well at all cuz my mind right isnt fully asleep.
its like yea man.. my eyes are closing but my brains are still actively thinking.
guess wad am i thinking of.. i have this impression that i m thinking of solving a quadratic equation.
its damn easy but i cant solve it.
and i think my mind have been working on this equation since i fall asleep.

woke up and headache like siao.
sian..
and vomitted like siao.

its damn terrible to vomit la.
the acid from the gastric in your throat causes some burning pain.. kaoz.. its super burning la.
whats the stupid PH of the HCL in our gastric ah? quite acidic ba.
i really think jelly is pro.. she vomit like once every day or smt..
i would have died la.

so nv slept from 1 30am to 5 30 am.
pro.. just lie there and grimce in pain for 4 hours.
enuff sad story.

oh.. javier was a nice guy.
he bring all the notes and my exam papers to me.

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This is so dumb la.. haha.
some unknown ppl like to google names and the search engine gave them my blog address.
ok names like..
'cher kian' (i bet cher kian googled this)
'lam xin yi' (marshy?!))
'sharon' (o.O)
'edwin' (i din google my own name -.-'')
'jelphine' (jelly?!)
and more.. cant rmb all.

i used to have this mindset that.. ok i like this girl so i want her to be my gf.
but now i dun understand why is there a need to get into a relationship with the one u like.
i m weird right?
isnt it nicer to just secretly admire him/her?
lol.. this sounds dumb right?

for now i feel that relationship is just a troublesome thing.
its damn depressing when couples fight ok.
and its not easy to accomodate the needs of ur partner.
kaoz.. it is to a certain extend a burden.

A year ago someone told me she doesnt want any commitment.
at that point of time being young naive and stupid i din know what commitment really means.
to me.. commitment is commitment la.. what is there to explain about commitment?
but now after 1 yr i think i grow up by abit..
commitment is not a joke.
its something damns serious.
its to a certain extend a sacrifice.
comfrim must sacrifice something de.
example some time.. some freedom.. blah.

so i dun understand why ppl will want to be committed to someone who they still do not know so well.
well.. that above sentence seem to be self-criticising, but nevermind that's past tense.

and it takes 2 to love not 1.
you cant force ppl into a relationship -.-''.

maybe cuz i haven find the right person yet.. so love and relationship is some burden and crap to me now.
maybe next time i will come to realise that its a beautiful thing.

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went to bowl today though its not a saturday.
manage to create another high game for myself.
254. No big deal to many.. cos 254 is your average.
I tot this 254 is really a clean nice 254.
not some tyco tyco miss the pocket still can strike shot.
it was something like dat..
X X / / X X X X X X /
all nice clean strike =D

a bunch of students beside were..omg-ing cos they nv seen strikes before.
-.-'''

but still i think i need some coaching to improve.
sucks man.. cant respond to lane changes.
what do i mean?
its like someone punch u in the face and u need 5 mins to register the fact that u r being hit and decide to punch back but its all too late cuz that person who punched u has escaped already.

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just now i tot it's Saturday now lehs.. and was planning what time to go out bowl.
Then i realise its Friday.
=(

Used to go around searching for 'trouble' last time.
Then i realised that 'trouble' is really troublesome.
so i quited mixing around with 'troubles'
but now.. 'trouble' seem to be looking for me.
and i m troubled.
what a perfect timing to be troubled.

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After a long break from normal lessons..
its back to normal lessons again.
cannot take it ah.
super tired.

My favourite lesson tml!
PE!
Tml's timetable is super slack.
the only lesson that requires slightly more brain cell is 1 hr of math lesson.
Thats all for the whole day.

I have come to realise that my past actions were childish, immature and such a bastard.
i m glad that i'm over all those crap now.
i mean come to think of it, its damn lame to disturb ur female classmates by pulling their ponytail, tapping on their head, tickle and all that lame dumb idiotic stuff.
i m just damn childish and immature at that time.
and i look like an idiot or some big flirt when hanging around with female friends from 745am to 345pm.
i mean like a guy with a group of girls looks kind of weird.. dont u think so?
Man.. i was such an idiot.

hey.. but i guess edwin is much better now right?
i mean.. i hardly even speak to any female today or any other days.
lets see who i spoke to today.
ok.. math tutor mrs cheong. (but she doesnt count)
then.. jelly for like 1 min after alighting from the same bus.
we were talking abt the stupid mcqs.
next.. dania.. on econs stuff during econs lecture.
marsh.. i asked if she can crack her ankle bone.
ok no more.
ok wait.. plus my mom.
finish.

ppl dun go ard saying in their blogs they are damn stupid and idiotic and all right?
but i do..lol.. cos i realised my mistakes.
actually i realised them like months back..
but din dare to say it out.
i mean u dont go ard saying negative stuff abt u right?
but today i found the courage to admit stuff i did that i tot was negative.
anyways.. to ppl out there who is just like edwin of the past..
i m not saying that u suck or u r negative.
i m just commenting on myself.
how good or bad mixing excessively with ppl of the opposite gender is subjective.

crap man.. some ppl's going to retaliate this post =S

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Went singapore island country club to bowl.
i m not member but got a friend is la.. so can go in..lol.
anyways its only my second time there.. the place is quite peaceful.
whole alley empty, only two of us.. haha.. cool right.

kaoz.. next time i m going to be rich and get a membership there.

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It's amazing how your cute and interesting post brightens my day.
i know who you are, but you do not know who i am.
I'm just like a wandering ghost in your busy life.

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Never be haughty to the humble; never be humble to the haughty.

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"i see you working very hard, what's your game plan?"
a coach came up and asked me just now in the bowling alley.
"game plan? i dont have any."

it suddenly occur to me that in what ever we do, other than working hard, we need to work smart too.
It's not possible to make good progress in bowling without a game plan.
likewise its not possible for us to make good progress in other areas such as academics or in our career if we do not work smart.

He asked for my email address and said that he will send me a file on bowling.
its a 120 page document on game plan.
must be my lucky day.

he mentioned some other stuff about the game.
".. if you cant strike.. you cant win.."

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".. if this is the case we can all get A.. except edwin.."

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There was an earthquake in indonesia just now ard 7 plus.
can feel the tremors.
i felt giddy and feel like puking.
at first thought is i over work sia..
but the thing is i wasnt do anything, how to over work.

Then i come to a conclusion that its a quake cos it cannot me feeling sick.
went to see outside..lol..
the neighbours all felt it and went downstairs.
i cant be bothered la..
just a small tremor wad.

but first time felt it ah.. wad an experience..

econs today.
i learn one thing about myself.
i sure do know how to come up with tonnes of crap.
almost died la.. 3 hours.
but its not as bad as 3 hours of maths.
i really dislike math.

Haven finish studying physic yet.
10 more topics to go.
i dun think i can finish all.. =S

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kaoz.. i dunno what to say about maths.
the situation is the same for every maths paper.
use one whole hour to do the first page of qns.
its not suppose to take 1 hr..
then after another half an hour.. become super sian already..
cuz everything is alien.

totally sian diao.
maybe i m still not used to sitting down for such a long time.
and i m muttering to myself for the last one hour.
was saying smt like 'wtf is this qn asking?'
'wtf.. wtf?!'
wtf all the way.

saying that the paper is tough is an invalid excuse.
i would prefer to blame it on my incompetency.
i m still going to fail maths this time.

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i m here to complain again.
haha.
this morning i decided to take the 615am bus so went down at 610 and see all the usual people who took the 615 bus ard 10 plus of them.
so we all waited till 615.. no bus come.
6 20 no bus come.
625 no bus come.
by this time right i see those ppl who take the 630 bus walking towards the bus stop.
kaoz.. today i see 2 batches of familar ppl la.. the 615 gang and the 630 gang.
that sums up to like 30 ppl in one bus stop waiting for one stupid bus.

so the 630 bus came crawling to the bus stop at 6 30.
20 mins of wait in the morning.. thats.. abit too long.
then all 30 plus ppl manage to board the bus thats good.. but the bus is super packed already.
like a can of sardine. all squeeze into a small place.

then people cant get onto the bus at the next top cos no space.
and then when the bus reach the stop just before the expressway.. there were like 20 plus ppl trying to get onto the bus. not all can get in.

omg.. this is so screw up la..
did the bus company just changed the bus frequency to 20 mins/bus in morning?

anyways..there was this plump girl who is damn inconsiderate.
i have nothing agaist plump ppl cos i m not skinny either.. but cos she is so inconsiderate i feel like calling her names.
we were standing at the back of the bus and there was this space btw us.. space for 1 person.
she die also dowan move.
like i will eat her up sia.. and ppl at the front keep squeezing like siao trying to let more ppl into the bus she die also won move.
i wanted to ask her to move in but decided not to cos i dun like the look on her face.
i may puke.

anyways.. i was silently thinking what will happen if i asked her to move in.
i was abit unhappy la.. so my tone wont be so friendly.. this is how it went in my imagination..

"escuse me lady, would u be more considerate and move in alittle..cuz there are many ppl trying to board the bus."

and the girl got this 'i-m-not-happy' look on her face.
so she will say smt like that..
'its not concern.. and its just a small space for 1ppl onli wad.. whats the big deal.'

then me being very irritated will say smt like this..
'ok why on u get down the bus right now.. i think u can free up like another 2 extra standing space for ppl'

but later she went to sit down la.. which is like good cuz there are 2 more extra standing space.

lol.
then there is this aj guy who is beside me.. also standing at the back..
and sitting infron of him is an aj girl who is reading some chem notes and i swear that the 2 of them dunno each other guy the guy was like looking so closely at the notes and reading them.
kaoz.. i tot that was pretty funny.
he was reading the girl's notes for the whole journey.

i dunno what to say about chem paper 3.
its suppose to be easy.. i mean look at the qns sia.. i rmb we did practices on similar qns.
but the problem is i cant rmb anything.
i know everything can be found in the notes but just cant rmb stuff..lol.
its suppose to be easy la.. but.. due to lack of internalisation of knowledge.. abit screwed.

Maths tml.
i bet it will be more screwed.
haven even read complex yet.
dun have the slightest idea what it is abt cuz din do tutorial or listen to lessons.
i may regret this next time la.. i think i will regret.
like 10 yrs later u find me sweeping the corridors of your HDB flat..
noone can offer me a better job cuz i m just an O level grad..
something like that..

maybe u will find me working in hawker centres.. washing dishes.. collecting plates.. picking up used aluminium cans so i can sell it and earn 5 cents per can recycled.
or collect cardboard boxes.. i dunno what they do with it..lol.
then u may find me sleeping at the void deck of ur HDB flat.. with cardboard and nohing else.
i guess my life will be something like dat in the future..lol.

i m not stupid.
i m just lazy..lol.
wait.. maybe i m both..
hm..

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omg its exams tml.
sad to say i still haven finish reading the notes yet =S.
now i begin to panic.. haha.
but i m still going to sleep instead of staying up to read the stupid notes.

i realised that there isnt many days left.
from now till the actual big big exam right.. i think its less than 2 months.
and 2 months isnt a very long time.
but.. its aint a very short time either..lol.

taking exams is damn stressful.
let me tell u why.
firstly is cos all the neighbours will ask u how did u do.
and neighbours include ppl of the same age taking the same exam.
second all the relative will ask u how did u do.
relatives includes those who took the exam already and those who are pending to take the exam.
so those who are pending will take u as some kind of benchmark or wad ever u call that..
its damn sian de..
then its damn hard to answer to all those ppl who ask u how did u do.
ahh crap thats why i hate exams.
but the main reason why i hate exams is cuz exams requires hard work.. HAHA!

i was in a bad mood after i came back from outside.
dunno why also.. perhaps its the exams tml.
cuz i cant staand it when the paper is 3 hrs long.
super boring.
and my butt becomes super painful.

kaoz.. why must we go thru this phase every few yrs huh?
the PSLE.. O levels.. now A levels.. and whats next.. trying to get a degree in uni.
ok thats if i can make it past A levels.

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whole day of fun.
so nice.
we waited 45 mins for prissy cos she's late, as usual la.. HAHA!
anw i swore i walked up and down the whole of TM at least 5 times.
from basement to the forth floor.

then we went to the chalet.
omg i made the biggest mistake in my life.
its at downtown east.
i tot is was the one where u put one dollar for the entrance fee.
but hell no.
it was the one beside escape theme park.

wasted 1 buck.
went inside and realised that we are at the wrong place.
LOL!!
one of the biggest blunder in my life.

then we went to the correct place.
oh it was a nice place.
bbq and bbq and bbq.
eat eat eat.
the food was good.. i dun understand why pris and dom ate onli like 1 satay and 1 hot dog.
maybe on diet.
anyways.. alot of people went.
there are some ex zhss ppl.. some working friends.. and lots of her schoolmates.

so we sat there beside the bbq pit.. and talked for like 4 hours straight.
i spoke alot to dom and pris and dom and pris and dom and pris.
ok sorry.
actually i m not an introvert and i like to make friends.
but half of the people there seem to know half of the ppl there..
its just weird to go there and say hi.

imagine i go up there and say hi to people.

'hi.. i m edwin'
'hello i m blah blah'
'oo.. nice to meet you.. hows the bbq food?'
'good.. hey edwin are u xx's bf?'
'oh hell no.. i dun even know who xx is'
'oh.. then are u yy's bf'
'oh no.. i dunno who yy is either.'
ok u see.. jh has got 2 friends whose bf are named edwin.
i din know edwin is such a nice common name and who ever is named edwin must be a pretty good guy.
edwin rocks.
anyways i m just lame-ing.. the situation above will not happen.. and no offense to any edwins or XXs or YYs for using ur names here.

see.. i mean the people there look quite friendly but its just plain weird to go into a group of ppl and say hi and join them for party.
but hey i still enjoy myself alot.
i love eating un-bbq-ed marshmallows.

talking abt marshmallows there is this guy who i think absolutely love marshmallows.
cos once he arrive at the chalet he came looking for the marshmallows.
and i was hugging the marshmallows.
seem like a nice friendly guy.

ok.. and da.. i craped with pris and dom and sometimes gt and jh's mom for 4 hours before we decide to leave cos the night is getting old.

the atmosphere was great la.. and the un-extinguishable candle was damn funny.

holy shit.
i m taking prelims tml.
chem i think.. dunno which paper..lol.
anyways.. good luck to all =D

and to my goodest friend sorry for the insincerity.

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okie okie!
a couple more days to school.
start making excuses for not studying and failing exams!!

alright.
tml i m going to step out of the house for the first time in 5 days.
omg can u believe i rotted in the cage for 5 days?
yea i m attending a chalet tml.
its going to be fun.. hopefully.

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have been watching f.r.i.e.n.d.s. the american tv drama.
well.. interesting and funny.
the only time i m laughing at home is when i m watching all these shows.
damn i m so lonely at home.

i m feeling something weird going on in my chest.
ok its not pain.
i feel sad.
but i seriously dunno why.
definitely not because i cant complete my revision.
and not because i cant be promoted to university.
ahh.. i dunno why.
maybe.. maybe cos i m so lonely now.
all alone in pitch dark.. the only light comes from the computer screen.

i m pretty impressed by people who can sit there for 12 hours straight just studying and do nothing else.
i mean i know a number of these people and i m impressed.
well.. dun say i m a bloody pathetic slacker cos i did do revision.
just that.. oh wells.. shallow revision.
i think u know wad i mean.

damnit.. i tink i m just one bloody pathetic loser.

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was checking my calender just now and i realised that there isnt enough time for me to finish reading all my notes.
lol.
ok so dun procastinate like me ok.. go do ur stuff and stop wasting that precious 1 min reading this blog post.

glad that i will be going to a chalet on this weekends.. or else i may just die at home.
won be expecting many passes in this prelims.
probably 2 i think.

so sad huh?
i mean its like 2.5 more months and we are saying good bye to everyone.
time in jc have been quite enjoyable.. if u take away times of getting kp by tutors.. homework.. fights.. and take away those idiots that irritates you.. i think thats pretty nice.
ok what i m saying is i enjoy my 1yr 9 months stay in school.
it will be sad to say good bye all the people u know.. (minus those who u dun like)
life will never be the same again after we step out of school.
ok u wun understand.

anyways stop being so cocky alright.
ya and stop being irritating. thanks.
cos noone is going to like cocky and irritating people.
like u.

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everytime i log onto bloggers and come to the create new post page.. my mind just go blank.
din know what to write.
life have been pretty boring.
so i have been keeping myself busy by watching lots of comedies.
omg.. they are damn entertaining.

i just turned into an owl.
oh man.. i cant fall asleep at night.
i cant sleep even when its 2 am in the night.
just sit there in the dark and day dream.
not day dream.. night dream.

i m going to die if i stay at home any longer.

ok.. i see many many people are getting pretty stressed up lately.
relax relax!
why care what others are revising.. how fast they are revising.. what work are they doing.. how prepared they are?
oh man u r just stressing yourself out.
do work at your own comfortable pace, i belive it will work out.

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hahaha.
i laugh till almost die.
go watch british comedy 'mind your language' on youtube.
it was air on central long time ago..
super funny la.
mostly verbal humour.
abt a whole class of foreigners learning english language in a centre.
damn funny.. if u understand wad they are talking about.

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