I din mean to distrust u.. well.. sorry. Tats all i can say.
As for why i tot u did it on purpose.. its a long story.

i m just so confused now. So unsure of myself and everything. so fustrated.. so full of hatred.
"why is it like tat?" this qn is always in my mind.
Why do i care so much when i know i shdnt be doing so. i know its wrong.
why things cant just go right for once in my pathetic 17+ years of life.
why cant i leave sight of tat island and get lost in the ocean?
how long will i take.. how hard can i paddle to lose sight of it?
i tot i lost sight of it today.. but i was wrong, it was still there.

Horoscope for month of NOV:
November
The month of November finds you riding in the front car of an emotional roller coaster. The highs take you up above the clouds but the lows take you down into the depths of intense pain and sorrow. Keep in mind that the only way you can get off this ride without losing your lunch is by finding peace and stability within yourself.By the end of the month, you will be in a state of great bliss.

quite true.. the front part. As for the last sentence.. judging by the current shit i m in.. sorry.. i think its more like i m in great shit than great bliss. we shall see..

oh well.. ignore everything and the world will be a better place.
nv really placed my ultimate A.O.D in use huh? i know i need to use it now.. or else i m dead.

i m dead tired now.. just let me sleep and nv to wake up. spare me from another day of torment.