i m feeling damn tired.
its way past my usual bedtime.
but i just do not wanna go to sleep.

just wanna stay up.. once i go to sleep and wake up tml.. everything will come back to hit me like a bomb.
unbearable.

imagine a sniper on a field mission to kill.
he ran into an obstacle right at the very begining and decides to turn back.
he is definitely going to fail.
i would have crossed that obstacle.. dig my trench.. camoflauge myself well.. stay alert and get ready for the shot.
at least there is still a chance to kill. right?

i got shot everytime, before i can complete my mission and i survived every injury.
what makes this different?
shoot me if u want!
i m going to survive!

saw this on the mrt screen today.. i think its pretty cool..
its smt like..
A B C of success..
Ability.. Breaks and Courage.

i do not know abt ability but i do have courage.. some rash and dumb courage.. nevertheless it is courage.
and breaks.. god give me some breaks.

hm.. i was asking a faithful christian bunkmate about why some good ppl runs into obstacle so often when they are not sinful.
Shouldnt nice people be rewarded with less and easier obstacles in their journey of life?
so he said smt like.. god throw obstacles to us to make us grow everytime we over come it.
and i think its pretty true and logical.

frankly part of me know it is impossible. yet another part of me said impossible = i m p o s s i b l e= I M Possible.