I got killed even before moving forward.
i wont say it is right straight through the heart but its close enough to inflict good damages.
i din expect it to be so fast so hard so strong so cruel so brutal.
its just a couple of moves on the chessboard and someone just checked mate me.
dead.. i m dead.
how is it possible.. someone checkmate me even before the real game begins.

some sniper shot me even before i come out of the cover.
how is it possible?

i m not happy with the way i die.
but wad can i do?

i m already bleeding like crazy.. and left here to die.
like omfg.

i was so looking forward to everything..
i was naively believing that everything will be fine.. will be good..
i m too naive.

still can remember what it felt not too long ago.
i was damn freaking happy.
and thought everything will remain like dat.
i m sorry i m wrong.
things never remains the same.

the stupidest thing is i nv nv nv nv nv at all expect it.
wad a surprise.. it hit me too hard.
now i m wondering how am i suppose to go back in there and concentrate on my training for the next few months.

its torturing me.
its killing me.