Finish watching "operation love" or some people call it "proposal Daisakusen".
Short J-drama.. 11 episodes only.
very nice.

Ken Iwase was at Rei Yoshida's wedding ceremony. Despite such happy occasion, he was feeling sad and regretful. Rei and Ken were childhood friends, they meet when Rei transferred to his class in primary 3 and since then they became best friends.

Rei is getting married to Tada Tetsuya, who was a trainee teacher who taught Ken and his friends when they were in high school.

Ken who was secretly in love with Rei for the past 14 years now have to watch his dream girl slip away. And to make things worse, as Rei's best friend he is entrusted with the task to deliver a speech to congratulate the couple and to wish them eternal happiness.

Hiding his true emotions, Ken delivered the speech and wished them the best. Deep down inside he was full of regret and wished that he had tried harder to confess.

They proceed to view a montage containing pictures of Rei, ken, Tada + 3 other of their best friends. The montage traced Rei's life from primary school when she met Ken.. to high school.. to university.. to work.. to the day when tada proposed to Rei.

A church fairy saw Ken's depressed state and decided to help him by letting Ken travel back in time to correct his past and to confess to Rei before it is too late.

Ken went back in time to 10 different occasions of his life, starting from high school all the way to the instant just before Rei's wedding. Trying desparately to change what ever he can in order to make a difference, however he return back to the present each time, feeling disappointed because nothing in the present have changed though he did make some changes in the past. Ken, is still standing in the audience area, while tada is still the groom.

Throughout the 10 times he went back in time, it was found that Rei actually likes Ken however she was also unable to tell him the truth. Both of them faced difficulty in confessing due to the fact that they were childhood friends. Finally Rei gave up thinking about ken when she turned 20 and start dating tada when tada confessed. And after 2 years they finally decided to get married.

At the 10th time when Ken travelled back in time, he did not return to the present time (i.e. the time when they were viewing the montage).. instead he returned slightly earlier to the time before he gave the speech.

This time he is determined to confess to Rei, to say the words that he wasnt able to say for 14 years. In his speech, he confessed to a tearful Rei about the past and told her that he still lover her. He ended off congratulating Rei and Tada, wishing them the best.

The show ended with Ken walking out of the church, took a cab away and a tearful Rei chasing after him in her wedding gown.

The show reveals alot of Ken's emotions.
The helpless and hopeless feeling when he realise he cant change anything despite trying his best. It's sad to see someone you loved so much going off with someone else, and knowing that you could have been that 'someone else' if only you have tried harder.

'if only..'
'if only..'

we always say if only this and if only that, when we realise that its too late to salvage a situation and start to regret.

Ken was also thinking.. 'if only i had confessed.. it would have been different today..'. In his case, he was lucky to have they help of a fairy to send him back in time to correct his mistakes.

however, we all know that this is not possible in reality.. right?
There is no fairy.
There is no going back in time.
Thats why we should live our lives properly so as not to say 'if only..' when something goes wrong.

well well..
I must say this is a pretty sad drama.
My heart was aching for Ken from episode 1 to episode 11.
helpless.
hopeless.
watching the girl you love slip away, out of your reach, out of your life and into someone else's...
i understand.