:Happy Chinese New Year!
I hear this everywhere i go.
people shaking my hands, giving me red packets asking me to stuff myself with new year goodies.
i just paste one fake smile on my face to hide that sulky look.
Whats so happy abt the new year?

I rmb last cny i was also in some shitty situation. But at least i can communicate with that person and sort stuff out. This time i m also in some shitty but i cant communicate with that person now.. cuz that person dun even know abt anything.
great!

I was quite stubborn like a few weeks back.. refusing to accept the fact.. refusing to believe what is happening. But now i accpeted it graciously and believe it trufully. We cant change wad we see, what we hear and wad is true. And i m begining to convince myself that we are not fated to be.. and trying to accept it graciously. So at least when i die, i die of a less painful death.

Every where i go.. on the tv.. newspaper.. radio.. internet.. they all talk abt VALENTINE'S DAY! VDAY IS COMING. Fuck it la (sry for the vulgarities).. fuck vday la.. i m still in camp and i bet my life they will be dating. I bet my life sia.. now u know how sure i m. fuck sia..

now u see me saying fuck here and there.. actually i m not being pissed or wad.. just trying to imply that " i m so sian abt this".

"but if u don try, you are mising all the chances" from some random conversation..
i always believed in this. Always. Until now.

u made it clear today.. there was no chances to start with.