now i know why giving up is better.
because the pain is just unbearable.
took a nap and woke up.
reality hits me again.
harder than the last time.

i m lying to myself all these while.
false hopes are my painkillers.
now that i stop using them,
it hurts like crazy.

now i see why u asked me to give up.
cuz its better for me.
not giving up is hurting like mad,
i m breaking apart.

stubbornness will onli cause more pain.
now i understand.
yet some part of me still hope for something to happen.
miracles. They never occur.

i dont like to quit like this but i do not have a choice.
we were not planned for each other.
it hurts more with each growing second.
its killing me inside.

Losen my grip and say good bye.