you are probably sick and tired of wad i did. maybe.. u din know the reasons.

i dun really know how to start this.. ok..

sometimes, the thought of giving up crosses my mind and stayed there awhile. why do i suddenly feel that loving someone is such a painful thing? Let me be selfish, i want to forget u because i m afraid. Afraid of rejection. I know i m selfish, trying to forget someone because i fear rejection. sorry.

And.. look at me. I dun excel in anything i do.. be it academic results, sports, cca, music or wad ever i attempt to do. I m just some dirt not worthy to ask for ur love and yet i asked for it. i love u and i want u to be with some one who is better than me.

I know u have not accepted me yet.. or u may not even considered accepting. but what ever it is.. for a moment, i din wan ur acceptance.. ying wei wo pei bu shang ni. so i guess sometimes i just pretend that u dont exist.. or u r invisible. hoping i can forget about u.. so that u can pursue ur true love.

maybe u feel that this is some dumb and lame reason. well.. these are my true feelings.

I guess after attempting for sometime.. i realised i love u too much to get u out of my mind. Perharps i m a fool. But i m most willing to continue to be one.

i m sorry for wad i did. I m a fool.

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let me go back in time so that all these would not have happened.
let me die in my sleep so that i wun feel the pain.
let me look at u, hear ur voice, smell ur fragance before i began to dream forever.