i m sorry for being ununderstanding just now. I accept all ur reasons.

Dun have to feel bad.. its perfectly alright to do this.

I know i stand 0 chance in the near or far future. Still i always believe in hanging on. Hanging on till my heart is being shattered into dust, then will i finally let go.

I dunno how long will it take for me to let go. Not too long, hopefully.
Yet one part of me says,' u got to hang on forever, or else....'

I will see how things work out.. leave everything to fate now.

I have been loving you with all my heart. I did regret some small actions.. i was just wanting to make up.. din expect it to turn into a disaster.

Tears well up in my eyes as i type this post. It takes time for me to accept the fact tat i m 'dead'.

I will always rmb the times tat we spend tgt.. nv to forget. I will always rmb ur smile, the playful you, how u dodge everytime i tried to tickle you. I will always rmb our conversations at the premises around ur block. I will always rmb the fragrance that u carry around. I love that alot.. but i love u most.

It is not suprising that the tears came out.
I will always be outside the doors to ur heart, waiting. Till the day u hand me the keys, open and allow me in.

I know it will be quite impossible, because of the reason. But.. i shall hang on for as long as my shattered heart can hold.

I love you.
Jel.