ah damit.
haven finishing preparing and the stupid exams is here already.
the good news is.. its just 22 days left!
the bad news.. its 22 freaking days left!!!! $%^!*# OMG!

i've got this feeling in me just now.
the 'i cant make it feeling'
u know wad i mean right?
i onli got 45/100 for my stupid GP!
and all i ask for now is 45/100 for my GP! nothing less pleasee.. but i dun mind if u give me more.. wahahha!

i m hoping for it to end cuz the exam feeling really suck.
i dun mind studying but i just hate sitting on the chair for 3 hours doing a stupid paper.
but i know after 2 weeks into the holidays i will be hoping that exams din end.
lol.. retarded right?
let me explain.. with exams ard at least i have a goal la.. my goal.. to pass this freaking exam.
without exam life will seem so empty cuz there is no more goal.. unless i go find a goal la.. which i think i wont la.
what can my goal after exams be?
watch all the youtube videos?
watch all movies produced in yr 2007?
work? hell no.. i aint going to work.
bowl like crazy.. oh yea.. i think i just found a goal.

kaoz.. sorry for crapping.
nothing better to do at this hour la.
oh ya.. watched 'Antitrust'.. highly recommanded by ME!
nice! fantastic!! thrilling!

alright i shall go play my battlefield 2.
all the best everyone =D

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staying at home for 3 weeks makes one go crazy.
Not from the work.. its from the boredom.
everytime i feel like going crazy i make a call.
after listening to those voices i felt much better.
how long will those voices be there?
when will we say good bye?

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hi.
my enlistment date: 8 jan 2008
my unit: Police Academy.

i have absoultely no idea how i get posted there.
quite suprising..lol.
nv did i even thought of wearing a blue uniform before.
waste my time go for the vocational assesment.
i wonder how they choose people de.

At least my camp in on the mainland.. dun have to take a ferry.. i get sea sick easily..haha.

8 jan is abit early eh?
nvm.. i get out earlier.

i wonder what will i be doing inside man.

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argh.
i m easily irritated lately.
by big or small things.
must be the damn exams.
its like 21 days long.
omgwtf!
Its going to be the longest 21 days in my entire life.

dunno why i m so irritated.
its not like people irritate me.
i m irritated at myself.
i m irritated at being irritated.
u get wad i mean?
argh.

crap.
shit.
$%^&!

i have a tinny weeny bit of liking for this good female friend.
OMFG!
WTF!
wtf wtf wtf!!!!
This is so dumb la.
how can i have this tinny weeny bit of crush on people?
It only spells trouble.

anyways.. luckily its only like a crush and its tinny weeny.
so i guess if it remains like this it shd be ok.

man.. i do enjoy her accompany and all.
i feel good ard her.. thats why i think that i have a tinny weeny crush.
maybe i m wrong.

i m afraid of msging her.. cos its damn sian if she dun reply -.-''
u understand right?

damit i think i m in trouble.

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What a nice day! =D
went SICC to play.
Bowled.
Arcade.
Dinner.
Pool.
Bowling again.
so cool!

How many times must i say this.
The environment there is really nice.
and my friend's mom treat us to everything =D
so nice of her.

Though i cant bowl good at that lanes i still enjoyed very much.
long time since i enjoyed myself so well.
life is pretty boring.
i m doing what everybody is doing now.. except not doing it with such high intensity.
studying. (i hate this word)

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Watched Coach Carter.
Very nice very nice =)
Its a basketball coach named K.Carter employed to coach a high school basketball team which is in a state of mess.
players are ill discipline and they only won 4 out of 26 games last season.
It showed how this coach transformed this messy team into a fine undefeatable team.
Other than coaching them in basketball this coach is also concern abt their academics.
When he realised that they are failing test and skipping classes he benched his whole team till they can show academic progress.
its suppose to be a true story back in the 1990s.

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hi dajie i saw ur email.. thanks =) =)

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Read the newspaper forum and there are some parents complaing about the PSLE math qns being too difficult for the children.
i was like wtf?
whats there to complain abt hard PSLE qns.
or PSLE qns that requires lots of thinking and application.
hey man this is the PSLE! Its suppose to be like that.
and results are relative.
so what if all the qns are damn easy?
and ur child get 270.
270 is quite good right?
but the national average is 280.
ur child will still get into some noob shit school in the end.
no brainers.

i cant stand parents who are so super kiasu.
like.. oh.. my child must get into this top secondary school.
why is the qns so difficult?! because its so difficult now my child cannot get into this top school.
like hello.. if ur child is really good he/she will surely get into the desired sch.

i just love complaining abt ppl complaining.

i was thinking abt the future.
what will i be like.
hm.. if edwin becomes rich right.. as in a millionaire..
i will do some stuff with the money.
other than investing and enjoying myself..
i will sponsor the bowling team for all their trainings.
like that they can train in peace and stop thinking of exceeding budget.
muhahaha.. thats if i m rich.

but judging at the current situation.
it may take me like 100 yrs to reach there.

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with 2.5 weeks left to the exams, i m so unprepared.
this is the first national exam that i felt so unprepared.
crap... crap.

screwed.

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i told my cousin that she can consider AJC as one of her choices for JCs.
Then she asked me 3 questions about the school that made me dumbfounded.
1. How big is the campus?
2. How old is the campus?
3. How's the school uniform like?

I seriously din know how to reply.
what should i say?
i mean i got to answer honestly right?
Like.. ' Small... old... grey top and dark blue bottom...'
seriously it is smaller compared to other schools that one fact u cant deny.
next its old.. indeed.. than many other schools.. and it does appear old to a certain extend despite the new coat of pain. Its another fact u cant deny.
and the most obvious fact will be the colour of the uniform la.. its really grey and dark blue.

so i said.. its small.. old.. and grey+dark blue.
so i get this typical reaction that i got from many other juniors and friends.
"ee.. small? old? and Grey?!?!"

i m used to these reactions liao la.. i got to admit that the first time i step into ajc was during its open house.
i gotta admit.. it wasnt one of my choices of jc.
cos its old small and the uniform looks weird.
plus all the rumours abt the school is damn mugger and boring and no life and this and that.

but eventually went to ajc la.. and i realised that one cant judge a books by its cover.
so what if it's small? old? and the uniform looks weird?
i found it comfortable, cozy and fun.
laugh at me and say edwin is crazy if u want, but i m proud to be wearing the uniform.

about being the ultimate mugger school in singapore..
i have got to disagree to some extend..lol.. not cuz i m in this school so i m damn bias..
we certainly do not have ppl bursting out of the school gate run like a mad dog to the bus stop to catch a bus so as to rush home as soon as possible to study.
nor do we have ppl stealing other's notes.
i have to admit that as exams approaches more ppl can be seen doing revision in the school but its a common trend across all schools.
tell me if i m wrong.
tell me if there's a school where all students go party all day and night 2 weeks before the exams. tell me.. i wanna get enrolled into that school.

why am i saying all this?
well.. just ranting.
sometimes it just get irritating when people say negative stuff abt ur school.
just like when i say.. ur school suck.. u feel insulted indirectly cuz u r part of the school.

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what is love?

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Go watch My boss, My Hero on Crunchyroll.
Not bad.
spend the last 24 hours finishing it.
10 episodes only.
all u need is 10 hours.

Synopsis from crunchyroll:

Sakaki "Tornado" Makio, the tough 27-year-old wakagashira (young master) of the Kantou Sharp Fang family loves alcohol, fighting, women and pudding. However, he is a high school drop-out and by academic standards, pretty dumb. He is illiterate, extremely bad at math and cannot even fully write his name in kanji. His father who is also the family's oyabun (boss), worries for the future of his son and his organization as he wishes for Makio to succeed him. He decides to force his son to return to high school to receive his diploma. He asks an old friend who happens to be the principal of a nearby school to admit Makio. If Makio doesn't graduate, the position of boss will be given to his younger brother Mikio.Furthermore, he must pose as a 17-year-old during school hours and in the presence of any classmates or teachers outside of school. If his cover is blown, it would be the end of his high school career as well as his hopes to become boss. Things start out rough and tough as Makio's violent temper is tested. As the lessons and days go by he learns there is much more to school than just tests and studying.

some parts of the show makes my eyes wet sia.
Other than some violence, its talks of learning about love, friendship, having fun, and youth in school.
It talks about being in a class, bonding and ever lasting memories that will be carried with them forever once they graduate from high school.

To a certain extent the show reflects what we are in now.
the graduation part and saying good bye to everyone.
farewell assembly is on the coming friday.
after that there will be no more lessons.

prohably the last time i can sit in a class wearing a uniform and attend a normal lesson for the rest of my life.

probably the last time tutors will pick on you for not doing your work.

probably the last time i will laugh with my friends in class, during lunch, during PE, after school.

only 5 more real school days..
i feel sad.

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din blog for 3 days cuz dunno what to write about.
life is plain, life is boring.
All i can think of is nov 20.. last day of exams.
but all i can dread of is end of october.. first day of exam.
dont like the examination feeling.

yay.
its thursday tml.. fun day =D

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My prelim grades: C C D E U
fantastic!
if u wanna know how it feels to be the bottom few in the class.. come ask me..LOL!
neh mind la..
failing math and getting sucky grade doesnt seem to affect me one bit.
cant even get A if u multiply my math score by 2.. LOL!

let talk abt other stuff.
went to bowl today..
oh my.. dunno what got me but i hit 186 average.
had four games above 200.. best being 256.
maybe good mood today la.. thats why bowl better.

a coach.. the one that spoke to me last time.. was there today.
he said i m very hard working..lol
and offered to guide me after A levels.
yay.

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thursday is the best day of the week!
Civics PE Break Maths school end.
for civics today we were suppose to play some sports tgt as a class but unfortunately it was raining heavily.. so charade was suggested instead.
sadly only 14 ppl were interested cuz the others are more interested in doing work.
and i thought it was suppose to be a class activity.

learned some folk dance during PE.
Entertaining to watch ppl dance funnily.. haha.
The teacher mentioned smt like it is opportunity for one of the classes of girls to get to know some guys cuz the whole class are female students.
its weird huh? how did they manage to slot twenty plus female into 1 class.. i wonder if this is random or deliberate.

anyways.. the class played captain' ball together after PE.
not exactly the whole class.. 24 out of 25 but its pretty cool already.
personally.. i recognise that we only have 24 students in class.
i believe a number of ppl will agree.

oh ya.. i fail math.
like nothing suprising.
if i write 'i pass math' u better check with me to see if that sentence contain any typo errors or not. i probably forget to put 'din' in between of 'i' and 'pass'.
got U again la.. just like the last time.

alright.. bed time.

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i think we should feel happy if our friends got better grades.

its will be damn stupid if u feel betrayed or sad cuz ur friend whose results was once on par with you now became better.

feel sad not cos ur friend left you there, but cus u chose not to progress.



such profound words coming out from someone who hasnt progress much.

me.



results are more or less reflective of how much effort and how effective are the efforts that you put in.

i mentioned effectiveness.

cuz more effort doesnt mean better.

efficiency is important.

take of example a man puts in 2x effort with 50% efficiency.. though giving in 2x effort he will still be on par with another person who puts in 1x effort at 100% efficiency.

therefore studying smart is important too.. not just studying really really hard.

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crap la.
i m on MC today.
not to pon school to be a supper mugger at home.

At ard 1 30am this morning i woke up with a bloody headache and a bad dream.
slept at midnight but haven slept well at all cuz my mind right isnt fully asleep.
its like yea man.. my eyes are closing but my brains are still actively thinking.
guess wad am i thinking of.. i have this impression that i m thinking of solving a quadratic equation.
its damn easy but i cant solve it.
and i think my mind have been working on this equation since i fall asleep.

woke up and headache like siao.
sian..
and vomitted like siao.

its damn terrible to vomit la.
the acid from the gastric in your throat causes some burning pain.. kaoz.. its super burning la.
whats the stupid PH of the HCL in our gastric ah? quite acidic ba.
i really think jelly is pro.. she vomit like once every day or smt..
i would have died la.

so nv slept from 1 30am to 5 30 am.
pro.. just lie there and grimce in pain for 4 hours.
enuff sad story.

oh.. javier was a nice guy.
he bring all the notes and my exam papers to me.

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This is so dumb la.. haha.
some unknown ppl like to google names and the search engine gave them my blog address.
ok names like..
'cher kian' (i bet cher kian googled this)
'lam xin yi' (marshy?!))
'sharon' (o.O)
'edwin' (i din google my own name -.-'')
'jelphine' (jelly?!)
and more.. cant rmb all.

i used to have this mindset that.. ok i like this girl so i want her to be my gf.
but now i dun understand why is there a need to get into a relationship with the one u like.
i m weird right?
isnt it nicer to just secretly admire him/her?
lol.. this sounds dumb right?

for now i feel that relationship is just a troublesome thing.
its damn depressing when couples fight ok.
and its not easy to accomodate the needs of ur partner.
kaoz.. it is to a certain extend a burden.

A year ago someone told me she doesnt want any commitment.
at that point of time being young naive and stupid i din know what commitment really means.
to me.. commitment is commitment la.. what is there to explain about commitment?
but now after 1 yr i think i grow up by abit..
commitment is not a joke.
its something damns serious.
its to a certain extend a sacrifice.
comfrim must sacrifice something de.
example some time.. some freedom.. blah.

so i dun understand why ppl will want to be committed to someone who they still do not know so well.
well.. that above sentence seem to be self-criticising, but nevermind that's past tense.

and it takes 2 to love not 1.
you cant force ppl into a relationship -.-''.

maybe cuz i haven find the right person yet.. so love and relationship is some burden and crap to me now.
maybe next time i will come to realise that its a beautiful thing.

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went to bowl today though its not a saturday.
manage to create another high game for myself.
254. No big deal to many.. cos 254 is your average.
I tot this 254 is really a clean nice 254.
not some tyco tyco miss the pocket still can strike shot.
it was something like dat..
X X / / X X X X X X /
all nice clean strike =D

a bunch of students beside were..omg-ing cos they nv seen strikes before.
-.-'''

but still i think i need some coaching to improve.
sucks man.. cant respond to lane changes.
what do i mean?
its like someone punch u in the face and u need 5 mins to register the fact that u r being hit and decide to punch back but its all too late cuz that person who punched u has escaped already.

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just now i tot it's Saturday now lehs.. and was planning what time to go out bowl.
Then i realise its Friday.
=(

Used to go around searching for 'trouble' last time.
Then i realised that 'trouble' is really troublesome.
so i quited mixing around with 'troubles'
but now.. 'trouble' seem to be looking for me.
and i m troubled.
what a perfect timing to be troubled.

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