Be patient, and trust that things will happen when they are meant to happen.

School was like so boring today.
Time passes really damn slowly.
I dunno why.. but.. its really a torture.
Finally understand what does it means by time crawls.

Anyway.. this morning.. dumb stuff happened to me.
reach school at the usual time, 6 45.
went to class to put bag.. but the stupid classroom not open.
So decided to go shit first.
The nearest toilet no toilet paper.
Nvm..
went to the LT 4 to place my bag and went to the toilet beside LT4.
No toilet paper.
Went to 2 more toilets.. its locked.
Under the pipes are damaged.
Rushed like crazy to block 11 toilet then finally..
got toilet paper and the toilet is not locked.
dam it.. went to 5 different toilets la.

Then lets rewind back abit.
when to LT 4 to place my bag.
The LT dark.
cos noone inside so the light is not on.
guess wad i saw when i open the door.
one idiot was sitting infront of the piano.
i was like.. stunned for 2 sec when i saw this dark blur shape of a human being 6 m away.
Stunned at the door way.
its like.. the lights are not on.. wtf is he doing in the dark?
kns.. for once i was felt frightened in ajc.

kns.
then after school suppose to have welcome tea for JC1s.
I rmb the venue was LT 5.. so at 2 pm sharp i camped at LT 5.
Noone come.
Damit.. called evryone .. noone pick the call.
So sian.. so went to yishun safra to wait for training start.
they arrived later and said the venue was changed to block 10.
OMG!.. bad day sia.. cant get to meet the juniors.
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Even if it was true, u still cant defeat me so easily.
I m made of steel.

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yawnz.
Tutors are coming after me cos of all the undone tutorials.
Someone give me motivation.
Its hard to get motivation these days.
Need someone to agitate me.
say smt like 'ur grade sucks i m better'
come hao lian infront of me.
piss me off
yea man.. then i will start working hard so that i can win u.
oh man.. thats me.

I m dying liao.
This crap is so hard to make.
I guess onli dom knows wad i m talking about.
i m dying sia.
This is crap.
Its gonna look like shit.
oh well.. at least its sincerity.
dam its gonna look like crap.

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Felt defeated.
again.
Why issit that everyone just refuse to tell me what time ur day ends?
wow... haha...
wonderful.. isnt it?..
I knw u dont want me to know.
but why?..

'dont be stupid edwin.. isnt it obvious?'

ya man.. its obvious, i know.
you dont want some idiot whom u dun give a shit abt waiting for u outside.
wow.. haha...
dunno wad to say..
its blue rose indeed.
Blue rose indeed..
unattainable.
impossible.

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Crazy day.
Bowling in the morning.
Shopping for stuff in the afternoon.
Imagine going ard orchard area with a 12kg bag slinged over your shoulder.
Its super heavy.
Luckily i had Dom to help me.
Placed my 12kg bag on his trolley bag and he pushed it around.
Felt so bad.. i bullied him..lol.
Thanks bro!

Yea man.. and we went all ard the place looking for my stuf..lol!
Finally we tyco-ly found wad i wanted.. haha!

Ok.. here is a sad story.
There is this guy named S and this name.. er.. eg. A
S and A have been tgt for 1.5yrs already.
Long right?
But recently there is another guy named B.. (B for Bastard) who fell for A dispite knowing that A have a bf already.
And he jioed her.
They dated for sometime behind S's back and guess wtf happened?
A fell for B!
OMFG!
Then A broke up with S and went for B.
OMFG!

I will kill B if i know who B is.
replace his head with my bowling ball.
Nvm.. quite sad huh?

Felt so sad when i heard that,
even when i dunno S in person and S dun even know i exist.
And felt so pissed..
wtf dun any how go snatch ppl's girl la.
and wtf.. the girl just walked away like dat???
1.5yrs of relationship can disappear in a matter of weeks?
OMFG!
this is really sad.
hope S can get A back..
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Smelly something fishy.
whats going on man..
i will get to the bottom of this matter.

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u just melted my heart with that one word.

imagine i was so fustrated 10 mins ago. and now.. i m a happy man.
werid.. how can my mood change so fast?

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To all readers: A pile of shit below. Read at ur own risk.



what is this?

Fustration.

Pain.

All combined into one.

And what do u get?

Fustration+Pain=Edwin.



Dun really know wad to say actually.

How can I be affected by these little things u do?

Should have ended it off.. 2 months ago.

I was so successful.. at forgeting u

until i decided to give up.

and fight for u.

fatal move.

now what ever is happening is killing me.

...

...

FUCK! Just screwed stuff up myself.

DAM!

WHAT THE FUCK?!

omg.. cant believe i just replied like that.

the tone is bloody wrong.

DAM IT!



Its all becos of anger i think.

anger.. fustration.

noone can think properly with their chest felt like being squeezed into the size of a ping pong ball.

Its so pek chek.. if u know what i mean.

alright.. i m dead.

Someone save me please.



SHIT MAN!

now wad.. shes not replying.

oh man.. i love my bloody life.

sorry for the vulgarities guys.

use them when i m damn irritated.. just like now.



ok relax man.

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shit la.. shit.



hold on man.

she dun even care why shd u?

yea man.. why shd i give a shit abt someone who doesnt give a shit abt me?

even if one day i die.. i doubt i can see her tearing for me.

yea man.. thats the attitude! Ignore her.. ignore.. ignore..

ya.. all she have on her mind is him.. and onli him. you dont get a fucking chance in at least the next 3 months.

ya.. i dun get a bloody chance.. so why not just say good bye.

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This is fustrating.
The first 5 frames of my game.
9- 8/ x 9- 9/
Kns!
see the three 9s there?
They are perfect pocket hits.
Left pin 7 there. OMG!
And this situation repeated tru out the training.
kns!

There's this NUS Open Competition coming up.
They are sending us there.
to die.
lol..
exposure ba.
I suggested training 5 times a week to the team.
they tot i m crazy.
Monday to friday onli wad.
and.. its only for another 3mths plus after that we wun be touching the bowling balls for 7 months la.. haha.
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when can u look and me the way u looked at him?
when can u smile at me the way u smiled to him?
when can u fall for me the way u fell for him?..

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I became zhi bi accidentally in school today.
let me explain in detail what happened.
After Maths lect everyone just disappeared,
so i was like alone.
Feeling hungry, i strolled to the canteen to grab lunch.
ok.. no classmates in sigh.. i guess everyone had their lunch during the previous break.
so i ordered food and started to eat.
then a whole bunch of classmates appeared from no where and sat at a table far away.
oh well.. then zinc tot i zhi bi..lOL!

ok.. maybe i crap less, become less noisy during lessons.. but i m not zhi bi.. haha!
its the quieter side of me?
or issit that i changed from a noisy to a less noisy person?
i can be damn noisy when i m in the mood.
nah.. just not in the mood to be noisy during lessons.

ok.. tml bowling.
need to bowl well.
the 3 players with lowest score need to clean the bowling room.
wtf man.
when bowling with dom only or alone..
i have a super bad habit.
when the ball miss the target i will be like..
"FUCK! WHAT THE FUCK?!"
yea man.. i said it out loud..lol!
when bowling with school teammates.
i will be like..
"fuck!what the fuck?!"
i said that in my mind..lol.
sian.. cannot express my feelings sia.

When i have a good shot while bowling with ppl i know better..
i will be like..
"yea man!"
when bowling with teammates..
i will be like..
= )
"yea man!"
said that in my mind.
sian.. cannot express my feelings sia.

ok.. i know i talking abt random stuff now.. nth to talk abt wanna talk.. how? lol..

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Not a good day.
In bowling, emotional stuffs and school work.
This is not a good week.

Helped dom to trade his power groove in for a polyester ball just now.
He shd thank me for it.
haha!
Treat me to lunch or a few bowling games can liao.. haha.
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i dont know what happened.
but i really wanna help, serious.
rmb when everything was over,
u said we will still be gd friends?

if one day there is noone for u to share ur sorrows..
pls rmb me.. ur gd friend.
i will lent u my shoulders to cry on,
and my shirt to dry ur tears.

i feel sad when i see u like that.
cheer up:)

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my arms are like jelly.
bloody pe.
how am i suppose to train tml?
sian.
stupid pe.. its killing my arms.

sexual education today.
interesting.
did not teach wad u think they r gonna teach.
learn a couple of stuff from it.

today's not a good day.
look..
i m not gonna care anymore!!
i mean it!!!

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The stars said its not a good day for me.
yes indeed, its not a good day.
i felt a mini defeat in myself when u asked everyone not to tell that to me.
ha..ha..

When it comes to love, experiencing the agony of defeat can be overwhelming, it's true. But are you so spooked you won't even get back in the game? Remind yourself that there are no winners or losers in love.

bowling.
fun.
ponned half of the chinese lesson to go for training.
hohoho so fun is gonna kill me tml.

Heard that A div is starting on 14 may? issit? cant rmb the exact date but its during mid may.
wth man.. if onli A div is 1 yr away.
sian..

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Dunno what to say about myself.
Saturday and sunday = fun and slacking days.
oh man.. while everyone is busy doing hw..
i m there on my bed, lazing.
watching tvee.. dvd.. vcd.

Where's my sense of urgency man.
This is the A levels year and i dun feel ugrent at all.
omg.. i m gonna fail.
Its either fail like shit or pass with distinctions.
If i m in the middle then i m dead.
Fail like shit can retain 1 yr.. so..
looking on the bright side
can compete in A div for 1 more year.

Distinctions can go uni.. can join in their bowling team.
If stuck in the middle.. dam shitty la.
What am i gonna do man??
no bowling coach to guide me.. dam.

ok edwin.. enuff crap.

oh man..
the western food aunty asked me to help her print her stall menu.
wth man..
2 weeks already and i haven finish yet la..
shes gonna kill me la..
dead.
its dam difficult to make..
why is it me????

My mom used to give me unlimited pocket money..lol.
thats if i run out i can get more from her.
but.. me not wanting to be spoilt by her requested that i have a fixed amount.
so i suggested 50 per week.
omg.. wrong suggestion man.

why wrong?
well.. transportation fee is abt 10 dollars per week la.
so i m left with 40.
then bowling with dom on sat is 25.
so i m left with 15.
15 for food and drinks from monday to sunday?
onli enuff for 1 meal per day man.
shucks.. i m a poor man now.
somemore still need to save up to buy stuff sia.

sian.
tml have school.
The only reason why i go to school is cos tml have cca.
aint enjoying schooling.

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I love saturdays.
Cos its bowling day!!
Alright..
this is an improvement man..
i won 4/16 games.
not bad huh? HAHA!

I've got abit of feel already.
Can sort of control the T.I abit now.

Wa lao.. guess wad man.
The T.I is brunswick latest ball.
I saw 3 other T.Is other than mine in that alley today!
One of the lane to my left, one of the lane to my right and another one afew lanes right.
wow.. popular ball sia!

If my monday training is at 4pm..
i m seriously gonna pon chinese lecture.
Training is obviously more impt than chinese lecture.
seriously dont mind training 7 days per week, 3 hrs per day.
4 hours also can la.. as long as i can be with my bowling balls and the lane, i m a happy guy.
LOL.. sounds so pathetic huh? haha.

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Crazy.
The new ball is crazy.
my first 2 throws of the new ball is totally out of control.
i mean.. 1st throw.. it FLEW and landed 5 m away from the foul line.
how cool is that man.
Not only it is 5m away.. it went into gutter straight away.

second throw.
even better.
5m away.. landed perfectly into the right gutter.. bounce up into the lane and went into the left gutter.
Shot of the century man.
who in the world can put 1 bowling ball into both gutters in 1 shot.
only edwin.

ok.. after that.. got used to the thumb hole.. so roughly can bowl.
now face a bigger prob.
damn. she is super reactive.. the hook is super angluar.. hooked like crazy on the most oily lanes i have ever seen.
how am i suppose to tame my bowling ball man???
she out of control man.. just like wad her name is, Total Inferno.
Inferno stands for big/uncontrollable fire, i believe.
uncontrolable.

so my average dropped to 100.
shit.
the uncontrollable hook la..
all becos of her high reactivity.
firstly.. i onli know how to play straight, not slant.
this T.I need me to play slant..
either inside line or outside line.
chose inside line la.. cos safer.. reduced possibility to get into right gutter.

but me being a noob can never get the ball roll over the correct arrow!
even if she does,
the hook is unpredictable.. at least for just now.
cos my release is not consistent.
dam!

wtf man.
i m gonna tame my T.I.
tomorrow!
hey brother.. tml 15 games la.. on bo? hahah!

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super tired.
must be the PE.
Sian.

Something to look forward to..
i m getting my new bowling ball tml.
good good.. cant wait to try it out.
shit man.. i m currently broke.

Glad that its a friday tml.
end of the week.
finally no more school.
no more sch for onli 2 days.

its onli 9 pm.. and i feel like collasping.
tml will be a better day..

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Ordered my new bowling ball.
$340, for one bowling ball.
Just realised that its high performance bowling ball..
the Brunswick Total Inferno.

It looked cool.. orange, red, purple.
That driller is going to drill it such that it has the highest hook potential possible.
i wonder how will it be like.
anyway, its a 14 pound.
i m so glad that i have upgraded.

now the prob comes..
how am i suppose to bring 2 balls to school/training?
kns.. i dun have the stupid trolley bag!
it cos 150 bucks to get 1!

Spend 168 on my first ball.. now 340.. then 150 for a stupid bag?
wa.. thats like 658 bucks for all my equipment la.
and this is not really complete yet la.. i mean if i happen to be able to bowl at higher levels.

Quite excited actually.
will be collecting the ball on friday b4 training.
will be able to test it out.
the TOTAL INFERNO!

I was choosing the ball with Pei Rong.
cant make up my mind on which ball to choose.
The guy say i need a dull looking coverstock ball.
i was looking ard for 10mins then he showed me the T.I.

"this is brunswick latest ball'

'wow!" (took the ball and looked for 5 sec) "ok i want this"

so.. i just took 10 sec to fall in love with my T.I.
it was real quick.
love at first sight.
serious.
as if there was some super strong attraction between us.
i know she is the right one for me.
oh man.. i love u.
Seriously talking abt my T.I.
ok man.. i treat my bowling balls like my gf ok.

ok.. enough of my T.I.
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so.. i appeared so desparate for love huh?
whats wrong with falling in love again?
and wanting to be with that special someone?
isnt that what all of u wanted?
finally i have found someone with the qualities that i m looking for.
and i m fighting for her heart now..
so this is called desparate.
wow wow wow.

i can snap out of my slackness if i want.
i can go back to being dazed, moody, sian, silent, attitude if i want.
i have control over myself.
love dun control my heart.

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don't even think about giving up until it's all over.

I need an inspiring quote everyday to keep myself going.
pathetic huh?
seriously man.. not going to give up so easily this time.
i regretted giving up easily.
not going to let history repeat itself.
This is going to be a bloody battle.
i m going to fight with what ever i have.
we all have the same goal: to capture her heart.

so many scars engraved on my heart.
whats one more to me?
oh well..
as painful as the others of course.
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watched deathnote 2 with some class ppl today.
oh well..
nice show.
the pace was slow, but i still enjoyed it.
brilliant.

there is bowling tml.
finally training starts.
going to buy the ball tml.
i will have 2 balls then.. haha!

maths test tml.
i dont wanna go to school.
lost my thirst for knowledge.
you know my priorities are:
1.relationships-family, friends, bgr.
2.my passion-bowling/other hobbies/having fun
3.school-lect and tuts.

yea man.. thats why sch is so sian for me.
the only reasons i go to school is because
my mom wants me to go to school.
cos after school have bowling.
and cos there are friends in the school.

dam la.. what stupid attitude is this man.
but i dun care.

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Never give up today, for tml will be a better day.

Confidence.
extremely important aspect of life.
for a friend who lacks confidence,
all u need to do is simple,
tell urself, 'i can do it, i can complete this race, nothing is too difficult for me'
its all abt ur mentality.
if u say u cant, u cant.
if u say u can, then u can.

These are the words that kept me going.
you may say, its giving false hope.
false confidence.
nevertheless, its still hope and confidence.
it still keep ppl going, to explore deeper.
who knows what treasure u may find after being motivated to go further by confidence and hope.

Art of Detatchment.
passed the theory.
failed the practical
badly.

i will win this battle.
the battle for ur heart.

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i know i m going to fall into a pile of shit again.
better climb out before i hit the shit.
dam.. u guys better get me out of here or else i m gonna be zhi bi for 1 yr!

i m suppose to mention 2 things in the post today.
1. i need to mention JH's name.
HI JIN HONG!

2.i need to mention dom's bowling score.
he lost to me, 144-115.
i won dom!
yea man.. so i mention ur score.
he only lost 1 match out of 16 matches. dam!

ok.. so i mention the stuff already. lol.
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anger raging within.
impatience.

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I woke up many times last night.
i had so many short dreams about you.
i woke up everytime u appear in my dreams.
waking up, only to find myself alone in the dark.
with you in my heart, but not by my side.
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watched The Myth a couple days ago.
i know i m a lagger.
anyway.. it was touching.
the undying love that princess had for the general.
and how she promise to wait for him to return to her.
i had tears in my eyes while watching the last part.

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