I had a bunk mate who sleep talk to himself a few nights back.
he was shouting "one more lap! one more lap!"
probably dreaming that he was running or swimming.. haha.
We went for a 15km run outside HTA, around the agriculture farms.
wow.. i kinda like that place.
so quite.. all trees.. far away from civilisation.
Peaceful.
maybe next time i can become a farmer.
haha.
Pris was asking me what i want for my birthday.
Then i rmb my birthday is coming.
I m going to be 19 soon but i feel like a 15 yr old!!
nvm.. young at heart.
After giving some tot about what i want right..
those stuff i want cant really be bought.
I want WORLD PEACE!
ok just kidding.. but i hope that the world can be a peaceful place.
Um.. i want to be always happy.
Like forever happy.. nothing can make me sad even the most crude remarks cant make me frown.
I wanna be a better person.
Not that i m not a nice person now=P
but there is always room for improvement.
I want to have lots of friends.
Want to have buddies who can go through thick and thin with me.
I want to be more patient, calm and cool even in the most frustrating situation.
This kinda apply when i m bowling.
Get pissed too easily.
Will talk abt this later.
I want to find the right girl.
This is probably going to take forever.
I seriously think i cant get married next time.
well.. got lots of other stuff i want but money cant buy them =(
maybe i should wish for them before cutting the cake..lol.
But they nv come true.. haha.
Alrigh.. talking about bowling.
i really suck at the sport la.
hopeless.
but cannot blame right.. got no coach.. haha.. excuses!
Found it very hard to keep cool while bowling.
I get damn frustrated de.
I m frustrated at everything i do while bowling.
I get irritated when..
1) I din strike
2) I strike
3) I din hit the pocket
4) I hit the pocket
5) I spare
6) I din spare
7) I lose my balance
8) I din win the stranger bowling beside me
9) There is a noob stranger bowling beside me
10) When people challenge me
basically i get irritated at everything.. hahaha.. so my face will look damn fierce.. like grrrrr!!!
"I will eat you up if you come close to me!!!"
Alright.. let me explain the above 10 points..lol.
I feel irritated when i strike but its an ugly strike.
As in the pins din fall down nicely.
I feel irritated when i hit the pocket but pin 7 and/or 10 are still standing.
Like ahHhhHH!!
Good shot but bad luck.
Irritated when spare pins but its an ugly spare.
Means the ball nv hit the center of the pin la.. it just hit the sides.
Lame.
I complain too much.
Expect too much from myself..lol.. i m no pro.
just an ordinary noob.
This is a freaking long post huh?
Congrats if you have not fall asleep reading it!!! =P
whats wrong with my internet man.. keep on d/c-ing.
04 April 2008
30 March 2008
The class blog have been dead for like 9 months and i finally updated it with some pictures just now. so go take a look.. haha!
Good old days.
Next week is pretty tough. 2 swimming lessons, 1 defensive tatics lesson and lots of scenario base test revision. Darn.. we even have night classes. Exams coming.. what to do?
Some day when i become a millionaire i will want my own house with my own swimming pool, bowling alley, games arcade, maybe a billard room (with billard tables inside of course), my own garden.. Maybe i will migrate.. but maybe not.. unless everyone i know migrate with me. LOL! stop day dreaming edwin!
Hang out with some NS mates yesterday. Chilled at Bukit Timah.. its super far away from sengkang too almost 2 hrs to get back home. Good fun anyway. Cant find my USB cable.. post the pics some other day.. haha.
29 March 2008
28 March 2008
Pretty cool week.
My arms almost dislocate while learning unarmed tatics.
Armlocks really kill the arm.
We had to do armlocks on each other and it is super painful.
It is suppose to be painful la.
Armlocks are fine.. then we learn armlock + takedown.
so basically its just armlocking the person and slam them onto the ground.
Swimming!
I think i got tanner.
The morning sun was glaring down at us.
Got super big blisters while doing the warm ups.
Hm.. we got punished and did 400 counts of 4 jumping jacks.
alright.. 400 counts of 4 doesnt seem alot to you but seriously.. it is some pretty huge numbers ok.
I rmb the second day of enlistment.. almost all of us collaspe before the 100th mark.
Being able to complete 400, still standing up and ready to do more is quite an achievement. I was actually quite happy that i completed 400. The sense of achievement.. haha.
Some stuff happened but.. blah blah.. better not say it here.
The week past super fast.
I woke up today and was like.. 'oh.. its friday already. I tot it was monday ytd.'
and like 'orhh.. book out lor.. nothing special anymore.'
I think i feel more excited booking in than booking out..lol.. i was actually happy to book in last sunday because staying at home was so boring.
Sad.. 2 bunkmates are leaving us.
23 March 2008
Cant believe the weekends just passed so quickly.
The only productive thing i did was going to the dance concert and signing up for universities.
Should spend my time more wisely next time.
Time to start studying.. or i will fail my law exams!
Its on 10th April i think.. 2.5 weeks to study dunno how many hundred sections of penal code, criminal procedure code.. blah blah and all the other codes which i can hardly rmb. It's 150 qns of MCQ. MCQ? u think it is easy? Need 105 qns correct then can pass ok.. and the answer all so similar.
This weekend abit sian.. stay at home for most of the time.
I must go out on the next weekend.. staying at home makes me feel blue..lol.
AJC Open House 2006. Time really flies. That was when we were younger and i have longer hair. I m happy that they start to let us grow our hair now.. muhahaha!! Studying in school is so much more fun then learning how to be a police.
It was full moon yesterday. Or at least the moon looks quite round. Beautiful. I rmb last month in camp I woke up one night thinking someone switched on the light but it was actually the moonlight shining on my face through the window. I sleep right beside the windows.. haha.
Had the weirdest dream last night.
Booking in soon, dunno if i should be happy or sad.. lol.
New York Fashion School
22 March 2008
Stared at the computer screen for the whole day.
Nothing much to do.
Lazy to sign up for university.
No good quality movies to watch.
All the movie qualities are so bad now.
Laggy frames and lousy sound quality.
Ran out of ideas to write my articles.
Have been pretty fustrated lately.
darn.. need to squeeze some articles out of my head or i m dead.
Nothing much happened on good friday.
whats so good about fridays then?
not exactly in my best mood cuz i m sooooo ultra bored at home.
only have my computer to accompany me for the day.
nothing nice on the teevee.
Did i mention i passed my shooting?
yippie!
1st class in shooting.
sounds cool right? But its 1 level below marksman..lol
Still thinking of which courses to apply for.
The more i think, the more i feel my grades suck.
darnN!
Was good friday also "change my blog address day?" HAHA!
coincidentally i know of 2 ppl who changes their blog address yesterday.
Suddenly there is this familar feeling within.. and i know trouble is coming again.
21 March 2008
I guess i dont know how to appreciate dance performances.
Perhaps it wasnt to my liking.
The dance itself is alright but the music are usually so sad, emo, plain...
make me bored sia.
Only liked the part with the joyful music.. haha.
Went to have supper after the concert. Yum..
Long break ahead!
but i dunno what to do with all these extra time.
i guess everyone is quite occupied with some stuff or other except for me!!
so i will most probably be trapped at home for the rest of the week.
she walked away before i can call her name
16 March 2008
Left with 8 weeks before p.o.p.
woohooO!
Shooting test next week.
please let me pass!!!!
It is going to be a short week.
3.5 days and it will all be over.. woOhOo!
want to go to AJC dance concert but.. uh.. they are going to release me too late.
Cant make it in time.
darn!
Looked at the tv listing for Good Friday. Hm.. lots of holiday movies..
it has been like 6 months ever since i sat down nicely to watch a movie on tv.
shall wake up 630am on good friday morning to watch all the tv i want.
muhahaha!
Alright time for me to book in!!
600th post!
Happy belated birthday pris.
Gang outing to clarke Quay today.
Went to Pub.
Songs wasnt exactly to our liking but the drinks were good.
Ate LJS and talked at riverside.
cool.. i love sitting down and enjoying the night breeze.
Still pondering alot about the courses.
Wonder if what ever i pick is relevant next time.
Practical? Thats the biggest question.
Next week is going to be a short week.
Book out on thursday evening.
woohoo!
Then there isnt any public holidays in april..zzz..
must wait till 1st May for labour day.. ahhHhHh!!!
But i guess i can survive.
No more lung infection.
I guess the antibiotics actually worked..haha.
so i can go back to exercising and playing basketball.
YAY!!
14 March 2008
Thats me in the rain coat. It has been raining so much lately that we are using the rain coat almost everyday. I know the rain coat is abit oversized..lol.
During a break in class. Do i look smart in the uniform? Haha!
Me eating and reading papers on my bed at night. I m forever snacking.. haha!
Guess what they are looking at? wooohoo!! Erm.. my AJC Year Book!!
Life is really good now. Spend quite some time thinking and reading about university courses and have finally picked a few which i think is suitable. Been on Light Duty for quite some time. cant exercise cuz of the lung infection thing. Been snacking like crazy.. so i guess i m growing fat now. ahHhhH!!
09 March 2008
Feeling pretty weak.
I guess its the medicine.
worried that i will not be able to do the usual stuff.
feel super sian about going back with a weak body.
Left with 9 more book in including this one.
stupid sunday blues.
We were playing charades in a blk 10 classroom. Look at me and my big mouth! haha!
Me and my little online business have recently ran into some minor setbacks. I m at a loss of what to do, how to carry on and stuff. zzz.. everything is in a mess.. urgh..
alright.. its now the time to decide on which course to take and which university to apply for. i guess we should apply based on interest, but the problem is.. i dun really have any interest for anything that is academic.
all the engineering thinggy sounds so boring. Business? sciences? nah i dun have brains to do that stuff.
Nursing does sounds nice actually. I know u r going to think i m crazy or smt.. but i think medical staffs are damn cool cuz they help to take care of ill people ok.
alright.. give me one week to think about it. going to read up on the courses during my free time in camp. My law test is in 3 weeks and i haven study yet.. ah crap!
08 March 2008
Issit called inflammation or infection of lungs?
dunno.
either one la.. i got it in my right lung.
damn.. no more exercising for me.
no more basketball!! NOO!
i m forever falling sick.
2 more days to p.o.p for friends in SAF.
2 more months to p.o.p for me.
other than going to bowl i din go out today.
was looking through the class photos we took over the 2 years.
cool stuff.
i looked much better back then.
face was abit fatter and hair was much longer.
sigh.. i miss school.
yep i still remember all the captain's ball games we used to play after our morning PE and go to math lecture with sweaty shirts! And all the lame but enjoyable meals we eat together everyday. All the stupid qns that hock ask during GP. and so much more.
looking back, i can hardly remember any sad moments. i know there were but i cant remember them. all i can rmb is the happy moments in school. such beautiful memories, i want them to be with me forever.
I must say Edwin is a lucky man.
Freak when the principal say that there is 5% ppl failing GP i tot its going to be me. I was like.. DAMN! I just want an E please!! And i m lucky enough to pass GP. Phew!
At first sight of the result i felt a sense of relieve.
like heng ah.. then after 10 mins i was like 'damn.. not too good huh?'
alright not here to brag abt my scores cuz its not good..
GP: D
Econs (H1): B
Physic (H2): A
Maths (H2): A
Chemistry (H2): B
Alright i m truly gald i passed GP. And even more glad that its a D.
Econs was a suprise cuz the school econs grades were really in some big mess last year. I thought physic was alright..
Maths is the biggest miracle in my entire 18 years of life. I think edwin is really lucky sia.. i rmb getting U for math in prelims and was like screwed by A levels paper 1. I tot its going to be an E or smt. I seriously dunno how i jumped from U to A its like a miracle.
Yep chem is a disappointment.
And this grade aint cool after people show me theirs. Wow its like so many ppl have triple As or even 4 As.
Alright.. i m content with this already shant ask for more. seriously need to thank god for this.
watched 10,000bc after the results. cool.. just that the ending is so predictable.. it became so boring. otherwise all the actions are quite exicting.
dang.. my cough cant recover.
02 March 2008
I still feel abit sian about going back.
Yes i know, edwin complains about it every sunday evening.
cant help it.
Results this friday.
dang.
I think they are going to release us on friday noon instead of thursday evening.
sian.. thursday evening is so much better +D
damn now i m worried.
I have this really bad cough that doesnt recover.
Irritating.
too lonely.
too empty.
went vivo with dom. yep onli the 2 of us.
and guess wad movie we watched.
The Leap Years!
omg.. we are gays!
2 guys watching some romance movie.
Waned to watch Juno initially but no good seats available so we settled for Leap Years. First time watching romance movie for both of us.. some more watching with a guy..lol.
anyways, i was expecting it to touch me and make me cry or smt..
disappointing.
The 1st hour was nice.. then it got boring.
some parts were touching and sad but it wasnt so cool over all.
And dom stayed over and we talked till 4 am before falling asleep..lol.
01 March 2008
i see the police notice on the escaped JI fugitive everywhere sia.
In the shopping mall, in the mrt station, in the train itself, in the bus stop blah blah..
clever huh.. instead of sending a few hundred security personnels to search for the escaped guy they manage to get 4 million people to hunt for 1 person.
A levels result is coming out soon.
Time to get worried.
Time to regret all that i have done and not done.
Time to think of the future.
So many 'what ifs' comes out of no where.
The biggest 'what if' is.. 'what if i cant make it?'
aiya.. heck it.. i m looking forward to A lvl results release day.. so i can BOOK OUT one day earlier.. yay!!
alright.. i feel quite bored this book out.
feel so so so empty inside.
argh!!
29 February 2008
stupid cough!
next time i will invent a cough syrupt that can cure cough instantly!!
alright, just came back from chalet.
CHALET?
yea.. i mean back from camp.
life is pretty easy there, its like a 5 days 5 night chalet.
9 more weeks and i m out of chalet!
This world is a dark place.
where people smile at you infront and gossip behind your back.
24 February 2008
Going back in.
No sunday blues.
Life inside is easy.
Listen and execute.
I just want my freedom.
10.5 weeks more to p.o.p.
then probably another 10 weeks inside for block 2 training.
Just randomly mentioning.. if u dont like any part of me.
just shoot.
only apply to people i care.
for all whom i dont call buddies.. go away.. haha.
sadness.
Watched "L change the world" with the gang today.
wow.. cool movie.
L was damn funny.. and quite sad that he have to die in the end.
ok so this is probably the end of all the DeathNote episodes?
or maybe there is more? lol..
Right.. nice talk we had today.
I think such talks are quite important.
cuz it allows us to reflect on ourselves and change wad ever that needs to be changed.
23 February 2008
went bowling in the morning.
wow got 2 schools training there so no space..lol.
so i watched and wait for them to end.
wah.. got this shiok feeling when all 10 pins go down.
its like super shiok sia.. feels probably like high on drugs.
wah.. i tot i can set my high game today lehs.
had 6 consective strikes in the first 6 frames.
but in the end onli got 255 -.-''
x x x x x x 8/ 8/ x x9/
wa.. everyday eating junk food sia.. i m getting fat..lol
22 February 2008
This week isnt so bad.
Time really flies sia.. like bOoM and its friday already.
How fast.
ok my shooting really suck man and i dread live firing.
The gun goes like bAnG!!! and i jump.
kns.. i m even afraid of a balloon poping beside my ear let alone a stupid .38
i think i m crazy.
Cuz just now i went exercising once i got home.
omg i m crazy.
cant help it la.. i feel guilty of not putting in effort when everyone else is trying to get better results.
heard that A lvl on 7 march dunno how true it is..lol..
Her name was suddenly mentioned and everything came back.
17 February 2008
about 120 hours before i can step into my house the next time.
i feel sad about going back..
i know i said this 10 million times already.. but i still feel sad about going back..lol
7pm to 830pm is my most emo time of sunday.. i should be alright after stepping into the place.
Back from JiaHui's house.
Din plan to stay over night but we ended our blackjack and bridging at 3am.. so.. we stayed at last.
wow man.. i won $10 plus at blackjack and bridge. Slow process cuz the bet is only 50 cents at a time. Quite fun..lol.. ting ah hock won like 20 plus dollars.. haha.
super tiring. haven sleep for 24 hours already. The sp and ys is super powerful sia.. they went to work after leaving jiahui's place. omg sia.. i may just die if i have work.
the sunday blues are coming again.
i m going back in soon.. sian!!!
I keep complaining about having to go through 17 weeks of basic training while army only go through 10. Thats almost double. But our training is relatively easier than army.. of course. we have no field camp, no route marches blah blah. but having to stay 17 weeks makes me sian too..lol.
I get sianner each time i book in.
alright..about 11.5 more weeks to go and i m out.
i was hoping that the results will be out on 22nd feb which is this coming friday so i can book out earlier. Super sian sia.. and i m looking forward to good friday on 21 march cuz we get to book out 1 day earlier too. cool man.. and sadly there are no public holidays on april..zzz.. but luckily there is Labour Day on 1st May! and its passing out on 7th may! yay!!
thats like still so long..zz..
16 February 2008
81 more days to P.O.P!
woohooOo!
Its slightly over middle of this month and i made USD $10 till now.
Hope to hit the USD $20 mark.. haha.
O! Did i mention we went for an excursion to police heritage centre 2 or 3 weeks back?
Interesting stuff there.
And yesterday guess where we went?
Mosque at bishan, Hindu temple and Buddhist temple at chinatown and chruch at cityhall area.
yea man.. we had a racial harmony national education trip!
its like the 4th time i am on such trip..lol.
makes me feel like i m still a student in back in school on an excursion trip.
alright.. i have nothing to do on saturday morning and afternoon.. sian..
but there will be a class dinner in the evening.. yay!
15 February 2008
AH! I m back!
Good week it was.
Time really passes so quickly.
Just last week, time passes so slowly while in camp.
But it flies this week.
After everything.. i learnt some valuable lessons.
We should take everything with an open mind and accept facts.
Dont indulge yourself in sorrow and tears, for it only makes your life more miserable.
Move On!
This is what we all should do.
i have never been so enlightened in my entire life until now.
Now i know why God gave me this obstacle.
It is for me to learn some valuable lessons.
i took my first Individual Physical Proficency Test (IPPT) on monday and passed it.
It was the 4th time for others but the first for me..lol.. i was exempted from the first 3 and i tot i cant pass my first one.
weaker stations are Standing Board Jump and 2.4km.
I cant jump or run for nuts.
221cm and 11:23min onli.. i need to reduce by 2 mins to get Gold la.
ok.. my next target is getting silver la.. so i need 4cm for SBJ and 1 more pull up.. haha..
wah! so nice to be back home!
10 February 2008
Let me read all the messages.
Look at all the pictures.
Think of all the happy times.
One last time before these memories cease to exist.
How painful to say goodbye to all these good memories.
and of course lets not spoil this friendship as well =)
Sunday blues.
Ever heard of them?
Monday blues are more common.
Soon i will be back inside.
I miss the taste of freedom.
How lonely it is to be kept in a 'prison'.
Nothing to look forward to.
Except for going home and sitting infront of this computer.
and i said i m alright.
blatant lie.
only those who have gone through will know
how it felt to be eaten up from inside alive.
now that i m not thinking straight..
kinda scared that i may do wrong stuff inside..
purely mistakes of course.. not deliberately..
failures?
Been there.. tasted it and came back alive.
How did those words came out of my mouth?
Regretted alittle right after i said them.
How selfish can i be?
compromising years of friendship just for my own.
Just so that i can get over and be done with.
Move on and dont look back.
And when those words came out of my mouth.
i know i m ready for anything.
and indeed.. 6:13pm i was excuted yet again. while typing this post.
There was no pot of gold, no rainbow nor diamonds right at the start.
ignore my sad words and tears please.
I need no sympathy nor pity.
Though pain will last for awhile its better than lasting forever.
Two less lonely people in this world and one more heartborken idiot.
It does sound sad initially but think of it this way..
its better to have 1 lonely person living than to have 3 lonely souls right?
no need for sorry or sorries..
all i need is a promise ..
to treasure what you have.
cherish and love like you never had.
and so its time to move on into the next chapter of our lives.
I give you my most sincere blessings and best wishes.
May happiness be with you forever.
Playing around with blog templates.
Like finally i dont have to rely on people to change and edit templates for me.
i can do it myself now.. wahahha!!
This template not bad right?
I like it to be plain and simple =D
I felt so nice when a friend came and ask me if i was alright or not.
cuz i sound super depress in my blog.
Guess who it was?
Jayne!
haha.. never talk to her in quite some time already.
Thanks for your concern!
Tough times dont last, tough man do.
No winter last forever. No spring skip its turn.
It will soon be over and everything will be back to normal.. haha!
counting down to my passing out parade on 7th may. The countdown timer shows 87 days more.. sian.. all those that i went out to during CNY eve is passing out in early march.. and i m passing out only 2 months later.
O.. i realise i m a shy person. ok i know u all are going to be like "huh? Edwin is shy? My foot!"
hey.. lets be serious ok. I m quite a shy person, especially when it comes to talking to females that i dont really know well ok. even on msn! like Oh My God!
Meeting the gang in like 9 hours time. Yea.. its going to be cool.. haven got a gathering in quite some time already.. haha!
09 February 2008
I hardly gamble.
but ytd i was so sian that i played blackjack with 10 other people i hardly know.
and so a profit of $10 at the end.
uh huh.. so what?
what can i do with $10?
anyone wants me to treat them out to dinner next week? haha!
Going back into camp tml.
abit sian, but i have got to do what i got to do.
haha.. 1 month down, 3 more months and i m through.
huh?
why do i feel so numb?
i cant feel a thing now.. good i guess..
i cant feel happiness but its ok, because i wont feel sad as well.
For all of the saddest words of tongue or pen, the saddest are these "it might have been."
who will be online at such hours. 4.00am.
Just back from visiting.. lol..
had some fun with those cousins of mine.
As usual we play sports, then word games and sit down to chat.
How time passes.. we used to be playing catching but we out grew those.
i m going to be 19 in 2 more months, yet i feel like a 15 yr old.
my thoughts are probably still super immatured.. i guess.
oh gosh.. i m turning 19 soon and i m still not ready to bear responsibilities for myself.
and so they said.. go for it! Go for it! Try or you will regret! Try and there will still be hope!
Hope?
I dunno what it means now.
07 February 2008
:Happy Chinese New Year!
I hear this everywhere i go.
people shaking my hands, giving me red packets asking me to stuff myself with new year goodies.
i just paste one fake smile on my face to hide that sulky look.
Whats so happy abt the new year?
I rmb last cny i was also in some shitty situation. But at least i can communicate with that person and sort stuff out. This time i m also in some shitty but i cant communicate with that person now.. cuz that person dun even know abt anything.
great!
I was quite stubborn like a few weeks back.. refusing to accept the fact.. refusing to believe what is happening. But now i accpeted it graciously and believe it trufully. We cant change wad we see, what we hear and wad is true. And i m begining to convince myself that we are not fated to be.. and trying to accept it graciously. So at least when i die, i die of a less painful death.
Every where i go.. on the tv.. newspaper.. radio.. internet.. they all talk abt VALENTINE'S DAY! VDAY IS COMING. Fuck it la (sry for the vulgarities).. fuck vday la.. i m still in camp and i bet my life they will be dating. I bet my life sia.. now u know how sure i m. fuck sia..
now u see me saying fuck here and there.. actually i m not being pissed or wad.. just trying to imply that " i m so sian abt this".
"but if u don try, you are mising all the chances" from some random conversation..
i always believed in this. Always. Until now.
u made it clear today.. there was no chances to start with.
i wrote this when i was pretty depressed..
its suppose to have a melody but nvm i cant sing it out..
Cry Inside
Beside me we walked in the rain
you said his name
with that sweet smile.
inside me there was this pain
aching through my heart
breaking me apart.
oh how you said his name
and smile like a little child
oh how be brought that sparkle
into your beautiful eyes
i can only look and cry inside.
Beside me stood an angel
oh how beautiful
if dreams can come true.
Inside me i know that we are
oceans apart
i cant reach you.
and now i look into your beautiful eyes
i can only see him in your eyes
i can only look and cry inside.
basically describing my feelings over this. I dare not sing this song again.. cuz it hurts especially when it comes to the last part.
"valentine's day is coming. For some reason i felt like giving her a pair of tickets and ask her to go to the movies with him" - Tuesday 05 Feb 23:15
Back from the class cny countdown at chinatown.
wow.. fire crackers were really loud.
the others went for movie while ys and I went home..lol.
tired sia..
tired of everything.
i told a friend abt wad happen recently and she said i m quite suay.
indeed i m quite suay.
where got this type of thing will happen de.
so many times some more.
piangs..
what a way to start my lunar new year.
06 February 2008
freedom never tasted so sweet.
wow its like 4 days of holiday.. omg!
Have been ill since 2 weeks ago.
coughing like crazy.
everyone is ill actually, there is some virus spreading around.
I constantly thanks god that they put me in the police force, cuz life is definitely much easier in police than in army.
yea.. i m going to bowl later!
wow it has been 1 month since i bowled la.
must be super rusty liao.
i guess i feel abit better now.. cuz i m sick and weak till i can hardly think when i m in camp.
feel rather heaty in my body.. like i m going to get a fever or smt.
beside me stood an angel, oh how beautiful if dreams can come true
03 February 2008
for some reason it gets more painful with each passing second.
i thought i had it under control.
i was wrong.
i cant remember when was the last time i cried.
it feels good to tear again.
who says a guy cannot cry.
i teared my sorrows out, but they came back to haunt me after awhile.
i have so much to say yet no words can express how i feel.
nothing i do can be seen by you.
nothing i say can be heard by you.
i m just invisible to you.
it just became unbearable.
someone ease my pain.
please.
"oh how you said his name and smile like a little child.
oh how he brought that sparkle into your beautiful eyes.
i can only look and cry inside" - Cry Inside
"And now, i look into your beautiful eyes.
I can only see him in your eyes.
I can only look and cry inside." - Cry Inside
now that i sit here and think of everything.
the more i think the more painful it is.
i just cant escape from reality.
its just a matter of time when there are 2 less lonely people on the world and 1 more heartbroken guy.
when i turn around and look,
your shadow is all that is left.
soon it will be gone too,
and memories is all that i have.
we got lost at sentosa..lol.. its seriously very dumb.
then went back to vivo.
ate and watched Sweeny Todd.
Initially i thought it was a screwed up movie because of all the singing.. but i got used to it after that and it was pretty nice actually.
M18.. and pris was pretty happy when they requested to check her I/C cuz it means she still look young..lol.
Sweeny Todd.. good movie.. but not everyone will like the singing parts but go watch if u can.
o yea.. my mom told me my face look slimmer and i din believe until i see my own pic. its like omg.. so ugly.
* * * * * *
One man's joy is another man's sorrow.
How true.
02 February 2008
Don ask why onli got 2 ppl in all the pics. cuz there are onli 2 ppl there..lol.
Us on the monorail to sentosa.
Us at one of the beaches.
On the bridge.
Top of the tower. Nice breeze and view.
At some sentosa resort..lol. and we got lost all the way after that.
i just took my cough syrupt, my flu tablet, my phlagm tablet and my antibiotics. And now i just feel like sleeping..lol.. how am i suppose to go out later?
have been coughing like siao for 1 week plus.. everyone there is actually sick or injured in one way or another. Cough being the most common illness. I have not take junk food in like so many days and not planing to take any.. or else all the exercise will be wasted.. haha.
damit i m still so flabby sia..
My income for jan 2008.. USD $ 20.79.
$19 came from writing advertorials and $1.79 came from adsense.
Hm.. good progress i think.
"Late at night at times like this it hurts the most. I cant sleep till she reply.." -Tuesday 29th Jan 2998 22:51 @ HTA on my bed.
01 February 2008
one just cant escape from reality.
i thought 5 days away was an escape.
and i thought once i am out this nightmare will be over.
sadly i am wrong.
it haunts me everywhere i go.
"My Passing Out Parade is on 7th May. I hope she will be here to see me in my blue uniform. She will be here not just as a friend but as someone special. However such possibilities are diminishing with each passing second" - Thursday 30th January 2008 22:34 @ HTA on my bed.
27 January 2008
now i know why giving up is better.
because the pain is just unbearable.
took a nap and woke up.
reality hits me again.
harder than the last time.
i m lying to myself all these while.
false hopes are my painkillers.
now that i stop using them,
it hurts like crazy.
now i see why u asked me to give up.
cuz its better for me.
not giving up is hurting like mad,
i m breaking apart.
stubbornness will onli cause more pain.
now i understand.
yet some part of me still hope for something to happen.
miracles. They never occur.
i dont like to quit like this but i do not have a choice.
we were not planned for each other.
it hurts more with each growing second.
its killing me inside.
Losen my grip and say good bye.
woke up quite early this morning.
for a moment i forget about everything that occured last night.
sat on the bed for a couple of mins and everything came rushing back.
it just hit me with a bang.
i m kinda blur now.
i mean like in a daze i suppose.
cant think properly and do things properly.
kinda numb from the pain
if u can let me choose again
i would rather not know anything
the feeling i had before ytd night was so sweet.. haha..
i m such a fool.
i m feeling damn tired.
its way past my usual bedtime.
but i just do not wanna go to sleep.
just wanna stay up.. once i go to sleep and wake up tml.. everything will come back to hit me like a bomb.
unbearable.
imagine a sniper on a field mission to kill.
he ran into an obstacle right at the very begining and decides to turn back.
he is definitely going to fail.
i would have crossed that obstacle.. dig my trench.. camoflauge myself well.. stay alert and get ready for the shot.
at least there is still a chance to kill. right?
i got shot everytime, before i can complete my mission and i survived every injury.
what makes this different?
shoot me if u want!
i m going to survive!
saw this on the mrt screen today.. i think its pretty cool..
its smt like..
A B C of success..
Ability.. Breaks and Courage.
i do not know abt ability but i do have courage.. some rash and dumb courage.. nevertheless it is courage.
and breaks.. god give me some breaks.
hm.. i was asking a faithful christian bunkmate about why some good ppl runs into obstacle so often when they are not sinful.
Shouldnt nice people be rewarded with less and easier obstacles in their journey of life?
so he said smt like.. god throw obstacles to us to make us grow everytime we over come it.
and i think its pretty true and logical.
frankly part of me know it is impossible. yet another part of me said impossible = i m p o s s i b l e= I M Possible.
it has been quite a long time ever since i felt this.
i think i do not have much options left..
hang on!
give up!
i die either way i go.. serious.
its like being pursued by some wild beast to the edge of the cliff.
Its either i jump.
or i fight the beast.
i die either way.
great.
even mentioning that name is a pain now.
it used to be so nice, so sweet.
it used to be a painkiller.
everytime when training gets tough and i feel like breaking..
thinking of that name seem ease my pains..
burdens seems to cease..
but now.. its killing me.
everynight i cant sleep without looking at that pic..
now i just become some thing that tortures my soul.
every memory haunts me.
i hope the worst doesnt happen..
however i got a bad feeling abt this.
26 January 2008
I got killed even before moving forward.
i wont say it is right straight through the heart but its close enough to inflict good damages.
i din expect it to be so fast so hard so strong so cruel so brutal.
its just a couple of moves on the chessboard and someone just checked mate me.
dead.. i m dead.
how is it possible.. someone checkmate me even before the real game begins.
some sniper shot me even before i come out of the cover.
how is it possible?
i m not happy with the way i die.
but wad can i do?
i m already bleeding like crazy.. and left here to die.
like omfg.
i was so looking forward to everything..
i was naively believing that everything will be fine.. will be good..
i m too naive.
still can remember what it felt not too long ago.
i was damn freaking happy.
and thought everything will remain like dat.
i m sorry i m wrong.
things never remains the same.
the stupidest thing is i nv nv nv nv nv at all expect it.
wad a surprise.. it hit me too hard.
now i m wondering how am i suppose to go back in there and concentrate on my training for the next few months.
its torturing me.
its killing me.
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i just came back.
haha.. should be released on Friday la.. but i got confined with those who failed IPPT.
lol.. i got confined for the most innocent reason.
alright.. it isnt so bad la.. staying one extra night.
got used to the life there.. i dun even mind staying there and not coming home for the next 4 months.. serious.
nothing much to talk about actually..
20 January 2008
I will be leaving home in 1 hr plus, back to my home at Home Team Academy.
Well they say going to NS is like going for a vacation.
but it appears that going home from camp is the vacation. going back to camp is like going home.
well.. its 6 32pm now.. exactly 5 days (120 hours) before my next book out.. haha.
i m starting to countdown already..lol..
this time i won be bored at night.
bringing along my diary there.. haha.. haven written it in some time cuz the book ran out of pages and i din bother to replace it. finally got myself another book.. so.. i shall start recording my life again.
ok i haven talk much abt my make money online thing right?
yea.. its going alright.
not much time to maintain it.. but i m still maintaining it now.
made like USD$5+ during the 10 days i m away.. and another $7.50 pending.. so it isnt so bad la.. haha.
hm.. what am i going to do on next weekend?
oh yea.. i just changed the template for some reason..lol.. so the blog is abit weird now.. i dun have the 'links' or the 'about me' section still figuring out how to put it in.. haha.
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went out today.. wahaha muhahaha yehahaha!
like finally going out with people.
o and i went out with pris.
Ate dinner and it was weird.
first time eating with a female who sits opposite of me in a non-fast food restaurant.
and pris also first time i think..lol.
ok then went to watch movie.
we picked horror movie la.. thai horror: Body 19.
must watch.. i like the twist at the end.. good movie.
my first time watching horror in theaters. quite funny leh.. when pris got scared.. she was like complaining the screen too big.. and stuff.. haha.. from horror movie to comedy sia.
alright..
if u r wondering how i look.. here it is.. me with the cap on..
yea this is pris and I. me and my new hair style..lol! dun laff.
went to do pull ups downstairs just now.
i m seriously lousy.
did 11 during NAPFA.
7 before Enlistment.
4-5 during enlistment.
i need 6 to pass.. so just now while practicing i squeezed 6 out.. like finally.
its so difficult to squeeze just 1 more out sia.. hope i pass.
o.. this morning went to polyclinic to check up and they refer me to hospital for specialist check up.. 23 jan 3.20pm.. so i will probably miss part of the training. abit lazy to book out and book in again sia.
18 January 2008
11 days 10 nights in home team academy.
it is sweet, bitter, sour and salty.
not bad.. life of a police is indeed interesting.
so basically life is about physical training, drills, and studying law.
yes.. police needs to know about crimial law and we need to take exams.
so life is like in school?
we have classrooms and LTs that we study in.. they are airconditioned.. =D
we got PT just like PE but without games and tougher.
we got IPPT just like NAPFA.. fail liao must kena confined.
i m looking forward to learning T-baton and police defense tactics.. sounds interesting.. haha..
alright.. i cant say anymore.. lol..
life is not bad la.. good food.. good sleep.. funny bunkmates.
sometimes i do feel bored inside la.. i m abit introverted in camp.. and i think too much of the outside world. i was feeling quite emo esp during the second week.. during free time from like 7-10.30.. so wad i did was to grab a few bunkmates and go down and run ard the whole academy till i m too exhausted to think.
alright .. the end!
07 January 2008
okokok.. i m going in sooonnn!!!
nothing to be excited abt.
all of u guys will be going in too.. sooner or later.. haha.
its just 10 days la.. no freaking big deal.
shall blog on 18th jan 2330.. so watch out for me!!
hm.. i have been reading on um.. common medical problems like.. hypertension, stroke, migraine, vascular headache what else.. eye disorder.. um.. cant rmb and i think i m going to like die or smt.
it sounds dumb but listen.. healthy blood pressure is uh.. 120/80 i m 130+/80 this is bad..lol. Higher blood pressure indicates chances of being hypertensive (is there such term? lol)
next.. everyone knows i have bad condition of migraine. Migraine with aura => stroke.
hypertension =>stroke.
numbness => stroke.
wa thanks man! i probably going to be half paralysed next time um.. most probably the left side. lol.
ok no joking matter all of u out there better take proper care of your bodies.
cant they change the 'o' in stroke to 'i'? then become 'strike' it sounds so much nicer.. strike! oh yea.. i going to SICC to bowl later.
06 January 2008
ok how am i going to get home from choa chu kang (my home for the next few months)?
Freak.. i live in the North East side.. and the camp is in the west.
how convinent.
If i were to take mrt.. need to take bus to CCK mrt station.. take to Jurong East change to green line take to outram park change to purple line take to sengkang and change to LRT. kaoz..
If onli i live in yew tee like ljh, zinc, jason, xina or live in admirity like dom, in khatib like jm or jh.. sianz..
my dad will probably insist on fetching me everytime i book out. good.. cuz i dun need to travel like siao.. bad cuz i dun like to rely too much on people. i wanna go home myself..lol.
ok lets pray that they send me to sengkang polic post after my BMT.. woohooo.. its just 10mins lrt/walk away. or even better build a police post downstaris.. 10 secs lift ride. fat hope.. -.-''
ok i just found a shorter route home after looking at the map for half an hour.
take bus from camp to cck mrt.. take mrt to either woodlands, admirity, khatib,yishn and take 965 back.
OR.. take mrt to AMK or YCK and take 86 home. wow.. bus 86.. makes me think of AJC.
i kinda miss that place..
i miss..
going to school in the morning
bombing in school
assembly
singing the athemn
ponning lectures
sleeping in tutorials
PE
basketball
captain's ball with the class
running on the track
playing basketball in school uniform
getting caught by arthur lim
untidy shirt
getting caught by tutors
lunch
walking around the school
listening to hock's rubbish during gp
groaning abt extended chem lessons
praying that chem lesson ends quickly
looking at the clock for time to pass
waiting for the last bell to ring
taking bus home from school
and repeat the routine again.
i dont mind going to school another 2 yrs if there are no test and no exams. homework is alright cuz i nv finish them b4. AH! i have the sudden urge to put on my school uniform tml morning and go to school. i wonder if this year's J1 orientation is better than our batch's.
crap! i miss school. i bet school is better than NS.
Freaking funny video about americans being dumb.
ok if you dunno abt qn who is fidel castro.. ans: he is the president of cuba.
Currency in UK ans: Pound.. not queen elizabeth's money or american money.
and i believe when they are looking at the map right.. the map isnt a correct map. As in the names of the countries are printed on the wrong location and they did not notice it.
05 January 2008
i went to the doctor to ask abt the ear..lol and he is quite suprise that i know the term 'pulsatile tennitus'.
anyways.. ytd night when i searched "make money writing online" my article in Associated content was ranked 1st in google..lol. you may think its nothing.. but it is a big deal cuz being 1st = more traffic = $$.
but this morning i am not even i top 10..lol.. guess they must have found out i spammed too many keywords. Nevertheless it was some sort of achievement.. i guess.. haha.
04 January 2008
i m back from the Genting trip.. so here are the updates.
Day 1:
Suppose to fetch tys and sp at 6am and 6.05 am respectively but the tys at 6am just wake up onli -.-''
bus left at around 730am from golden mile complex. first half of the journey was boring. like really boring.. until we started playing 'Mafia'. Interesting game, played like siao during the trip.
Reached the place at around 230pm.. thats like 7 hours of bus ride. The ride was bad when the bus is ascending the moutain. The bus driver no license de.. drive like some noob.. everyone giddy..lol.
Took our rooms.. and then not satisfied with it.. so changed room.
my room number: 3938.. shared with LJH and HK. Then the other 7 ppl took an adjourning room beside ours.
Went to the indoor theme park after lunch..we sat the ferris wheel and some i dunno wad ride is that la.. everytime i sit with ting hock kiat..lol.. damn gay.. imgaine 2 guys in a small ferris wheel cabin?!?!?!!!
Watched Alien Vs Predator the 1.15am show..lol.. reached the hotel at 3.30 and collaspe like a log.
Day 2:
woke up at 8.30am.. we onli had 5 breakfast vouchers so the 5 girls went for the free breakfast while hock brought us to the staff canteen for breakfast. lol.. we are probably the few tourist who eat at staff canteen. Good and cheap.. recommended.. better than the foodcourt there.
Went snow city.. it was really freezing.. haha.. it was fun while it lasted.
After that we went to the OUTDOOR THEME PARK! eh.. actually i wasnt too enthu abt going to outdoor theme parks. Call me a coward.. i dun like to sit the rides. Cuz i have motion sickness la.. kinda bad sometimes. ask my cousin wad happen when we last went to escape themepark. i vomited while on the ride. how great. wasnt planning to go to the outdoor themepark.. but all the rest going so.. aiya.. just go lor..lol..
i went to almost all the rides in the end.lol.. i think i m pro man. The first one was some ride that goes in circle and i tot i will just die after that but nothing happen..like not even dizzy.. pretty suprised.
yea.. some 360 deg rollercoaster.. Go karting.. blah blah.. everything thrilling except SpaceShot.. the one that drops u down from like 10 stories high. It was closed by the time we decided to play..so.. too bad..lol. good fun.
went to the arcade also. lousy arcade.
Nice dinner at a restaurant.. good food and went back to gamble. i lost 9.50 dollars..-.-'' like super suay. not even once a blackjack..lol. see ah.. so my first 2 cards are like 2 and 10.. so confirm have to draw right.. so i draw.. then kena 10. wa.. fantastic. kena 1-9 also nvm.. why kena 10..lol.
Then went to watch movie at 1.15am again.. this time we watched National Treasure 2.. like alot ppl fall asleep. i knocked out for like 20 secs then suddenly wake up and realised i missed some content. nice movie.
Day 3:
yea day 3 is also today (4thjan2008).. had a good breakfast at restaurant.. 30 bucks for nice food not bad. then we played 'mafia' till almost late for the bus. haha. yea. everyone was like asleep during the trip. the LJH is trying to promote his jap songs to me.. making me listen to his mp3..lol.. damn funny.
finaly we reached golden mile at ard 9 15pm.. and say goodbye to everyone.
It was fun and fun only.. haha. I wonder when can the class or at least part of the class gather again.
sianz.. i m going to NS in 3 days. And i will be away for like 10 days.. haha.. save me!!
02 January 2008
i have been hearing thumping sounds in my left ear.. so decided to find out what it is.. so..
In pulsatile tinnitus, people hear something resembling their heartbeat in their ear.
Pulsatile tinnitus is usually due to a small blood vessel that is coupled by fluid to your ear drum. It is usually nothing serious and also untreatable. Nevertheless, rarely pulsatile tinnitus can be caused by more serious problems -- aneurysms, increased pressure in the head (hydrocephalus), and hardening of the arteries. A vascular tumor such as a "glomus" may fill the middle ear, or a vein similar to a varicose vein may make enough noise to be heard.
There are some very large blood vessels -- the carotid artery and the jugular vein -- that are very close to the inner ear (see diagram above). Noise in those blood vessels can be conducted into the inner ear. Accordingly, other possibilities for vascular tinnitus include dehiscence (missing bone) of the jugular bulb -- an area in the skull which contains the jugular vein, and an aberrantly located carotid artery. An enlarged jugular bulb on the involved side is common in persons with venous type pulsatile tinnitus.
Anything that increases blood flow or turbulence such as hyperthyroidism, low blood viscosity (e.g. anemia), or tortuous blood vessels may cause pulsatile tinnitus.
so i guess it is pulsatile tinnitus. irritating sound. Read more...
01 January 2008
Our new year gathering at esplanade!
pris and i
dom and i
jh and i
ok more pic to come when i m back from the genting trip.
tml 645 bus.. but i m not sleeping any early.. cuz can sleep during the journey.
and oh shit i told hock that will smith died in i m legend forgetting that he have not watched it yet.. sorry..lol.
alright.. this will be like my last outing b4 2 years in 'prison'.. haha! Read more...
How can one survive without?
Stars and diamonds fails to buy
only a choosen heart can.
Risk it. Risk it not.
Disasters behold.
Succeed or fail.
Unavoidable losses.
Ice melts under the sun.
A frozen heart cant.
Diamonds in the rocks takes a year to mine.
Diamonds in the eyes takes a lifetime.
Stairs to heaven, a zillion steps.
stairs to the heart stretches forever.
is there still any courage left to take the first step.
The forbidden step.
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no worries i m fine.
i m not emo..lol.
just felt like being Dom for one day..LOL!
yea dom wrote a post that isnt his style. A perfectly normal one which everyone can understand.
so i decide to write smt that isnt my style. some stupid un-understandable thing that i dun even understand it myself.
alright. who knows the meaning? one word to describe all. not L O V E..haha! Read more...
oh my..
another bad dream.
this time i broke the law and authorities were chasing me.
great.
in 7 days time i will be part of the authority.
i believe i have watched too many horror movies.
3 consective bad dreams because of 3 consective horror movies.
30 days of night
i m legend
days of darkness.
ok days of darnkess is some crap zombie flick, with some gory scenes and lack of plot. Just merely trying to cover their lack of plot with some gruesome scenes.
i m legend is legend. must watch.
30 daysofnight is not bad too but legend is nicer.
happy new year everyone!
went countdown at esplanade with the gang. Ate jap crusine, and burn a hole in my wallet. Then went to our old work place, swissotel to take a look. Same old swissotel feeling. It was the "be serious and quit fooling around" feeling. Sat there and chatted before moving to esplanade.
It was super crowded. Suppose to be ard 15k ppl turning up i guess. even an ant can walk faster than me. It was worth the wait. Fireworks display never fails to amaze many.
However beautiful things are short lived. It was over even before we can truly embrace its beauti. So cherish it while there is a chance to.
Then we walk back. even a snail can crawl faster than i walk. Everyone was squeezing everyone. Suffocating. Finally we made it back to cityhall mrt.. crowded. Like the whole AJC population has just squeezed onto the platform.
made it back home finally and my easy link card cant work. cuz at city hall they allowed us to get in without tapping. Then i was stucked at my LRT station. Had to contact the counter thru the intercom.
yea then the guy was quite helpful and polite. finally got out of the place. Had a nice shower and came to type this post.
Tomorrow i will be gone and onli be back on the 4th. Genting trip great start to a great year ahead.. hopefully a good year.
31 December 2007
O!
i was looking thru youtube just now and came across this video that teaches ppl how to make money online. LOL!
so i watched it la.. and listened to the guy talk. the first thing that came to my mind was.. hey is this a singaporean?
thou he is trying very hard to speak proper english but can still hear that english is not his native tongue. so i went to check his profile.
yea.. indeed.. he's from sg.
see.. you can differentiate native sg ppl from just hearing them speak. dun even need to look at them.
god.. i just wrote 3 newyear cards.
and badly written.. 2 months nv use a pen liao.. i almost forget what is a pen and how to use one.
o.. i bet 10 dollars lao pris is going to be late.
30 December 2007
i m so bored, that explains why i m blogging like 3 times a day.
o.. btw my worthy chess opponent came to look for me just now.
haha! yea man.. i was blogging and then suddenly a msg appear.. "hey u wanna play chess?"
i was like "alright!"
one thing i learn abt from wad ever i m doing now.. there is not such thing as easy money in this world. serious.
got lots of ppl ask.. 'hey how to make easy money online huh? i dont want do so much work, not complicated, and can earn 10k per month'
lol.. tell me if there is such job cuz i m looking for it as well.
back from exercising.
lol.. not so bad as the last time.
i m getting back yeah!
but my pull up.. only 4.. haha.
hard to believe that i did 11 during NAPFA.
ehh.. got smt wrong with my 30 days of night video.. they not showing the video still image =(
celebrating newyear with the gang. haha.. that will be my third newyear with jh and dom, and first one with pris.omg its going to be super crowded at city hall area tml.. lets hope we get to see some nice fireworks!
back to serious business.
so far..
Google Adsense: $11.00+
Writing Advertorials: $12.00
Publishing articles: $2.00+
And for this month i make USD $25.00+
kon-gra-joo-late me please!
if i convert it into SGD at the current converstion rate 1:1.44.. it will be about SGD $36+ just enought to cover half of my bowling fee this month.
LOL!
Right.. next month's forecast..
My forecast is pessimistic.
serious.
cuz i m like away for most of the time.. its hard to maintain a blog =/
so.. probably about USD$5 for next month.
right.. actually i learn quite alot of stuff from doing all these things people call crap.. ok i will talk abt wad i learn later.. dinner time!!!
30 days of night
I made the clip..lol.
not very well done but u should get a gist of what the movie is about.
It was orginally in DIVX format.. so i used prism converter to convert it into WMV. It took 7hours to convert. Then 2 hours to rewatch and edit the 1 hr 44 min movie into 9 min 36 second clip.
I have plenty of time to do rubbish stuff. HAHA!
The first video i edited was JUNO, even before it started screening in US. Eh.. i got the fragmented clips from some websites, converted them from FLV to WMV then edited and piece everything tgt to become a 5min30+ second trailer. Took like 4 hours to do it cuz it was my first time. HAHA!
Ran into much difficulties in obtaining the clips cuz you cant just download it. Its like youtube.. not downloading. So wad i did was install realplayer downloader to download it in FLV format.. but.. it was copyrighted and realplayer follows copyright laws.. so had to find Orbit Downloader and DL all the 8 clips.
Then covert everything using video format converter. The WMV format was disastrous cuz the audio and image were not insync.. so had to reconvert every clip like 10 times.. BUT its still not insync. So in the end must edit the 'spoiled' parts off leaving the good ones behind.
had nothing much to do. din expect it to have 13k views in 20 days..lol.
i dun think JUNO will be screened in SG, cuz there are lots of american teenage slangs that not many ppl can understand. But its a great film.. judging on all the clips.
ok time to exercise..zzzz... rain!! rain!!
29 December 2007
omg guess wad happen sia?
pris forget wad is algebra.
damn funny.
dom and i have to explain to her that its something that involves usuage of alphabets to solve problems.
then she finally rmb.
scary huh?
seriously i m super glad to be not studying now.
i do enjoy hanging out with friends, and eating in the canteen, but taking exams and test and tutorials are just unbearable. espcially failing test, exams and getting screamed at crazy tutors during tutorials..lol.
but then i m going to freaking NS and staring my life over again.
this means new ppl and edwin is not good at adapting to new environment.
i rmb when i first came to jc, i was worried that i wasnt able to make any friends.
luckily got lots of zhss ppl or else i really loner liao.
now going to NS, i m worried that i will not be able to get along with ppl there.
not that i have any prob in socialising or wad. i think my social skills are not so bad.. but just i scared i zi bi then die ah.
Then after NS, have so many months b4 uni. So must go work. then again.. need to adapt to new ppl during work. then start uni also must adapt. finish uni also must adapt. its all abt adapting.
ok if.. i cannot get into uni then dun need adapt so many times liao.
and seriously i can see my future.
what lies ahead is completely unknown.
i cant see what i will be like in the future and i dun have a goal..sian.
i m 18 and going to be an adult soon.. and my life is still so screwed.
suddenly felt damn bored.
like nothing to do sia.
i m infront of this comp for 16.5 hours a day.
7 hours of sleep.
0.5 hours in the toilet.
16.5 hours on the comp.
yes i take my breakfast, lunch, tea, dinner and supper in my room infront of the comp.
Edwin has no life.
ok i m trying to convert Divx videos into WMV format. just for fun..lol.. testing the software out. Freak it takes super long to convert la.
newyear in coming.
i m kinda looking forward to a new start.
2007 have been nice but it will be good if i can escape the not so nice parts.
i was watching 30 Days of Night till 2am this morning and went to be at 3am.
Ok.. great vampire show.
If you compare old horror films and new horror films you will realise that there is a difference in how they freak ppl out.
old horror films uses more of the suprise element. i.e. something just jump out of some where and BOO!!!
new horror films like 30daysofnight does use such techiques but not so frequently. They uses scary images. such as all those bloody corspes, show u how they rip ppl apart, blood spewing everywhere, blah blah.. sadistic scenes.
ok.. then i went to bed and i have a nightmare.
stupid show.
But it isnt abt zombies, vampires or has anything to do with blood.
lol.. this nightmare is pretty lame, here it goes.
i dreamed all my friends left me.
ok how lame is it man?
hey but it was damn frightening ok.
i was like damn sad!
ok actually i onli dream of 0806 and all of them ps me.
wa kao!
u all better not ps me or else....
lol!
ok just a bad dream.. haha!
27 December 2007
26 December 2007
LOL! What am i doing sia?
Peeling prawns.
Lao Pris and I
Dom and his big mouth.. LOL!
Me and the fries.
Me and the ice cream. Dunno why dom got this expression on his face.. like he saw 'something' like dat..lol.
Me playing.
pris and JH
Dom. JH being extra. HAHA!
Look the smoke. cant even see my face.
what am i doing again?
Three of us
The Burning Flame..lOL! 6 sticks combined. 5 secs burn out.
Pris and I
Dom and JH
Pris and I again.
All of us!!
OH MY GOD!
I m seriously out of shape.
Just went downstairs and do my 2.4 without timing.
And now i m like dying.
Felt like jelly and abit blur blur de.. haha.
Running 2.4 is ok.
But it is what happen after running that scares me.
because i haven exercise properly for like 3-4 months..
i was panting like siao after the run.
practically have to stick my tongue out and pant like a dog.. pant pant..
This is my pre-NS warm up..lol.
i dowan to go there then realise i can do a pull up, a push up, run or wad ever.
ok la.. my push up, pull up, squads blah blah still ok.. its my stamina that deproved =/
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Lets touch a little about relationship.
Some people prefer the 'short-cut' others like me prefer the long way.
ok short cut doesnt mean bad its just personal preference.
Long way means.. start from strangers (duh) then become friends.. better friend.. even better friends.. and finally develop some special feelings then blah blah..
short cut means 2 people starts off as strangers (duh) then when they get to know each other they will have this mindset 'alright he/she may be the one' so they cont knowing for sometime and then *ting!* jackport!
yea.. so the diff btw long/short is long starts off as being friends and no other intentions and short starts off as being friends but having intentions already. Intentions doesnt mean bad intentions ah.
so personally i prefer the long way.
but i guess in the modern fast paced world people are begining to take short ways.
but seriously.. long way sucks sometimes.
not that it takes a super long time.. its just after being such good friends.. i may just not wanna take it any futher cuz it may spoil friendship. Friendship is such an impt thing.. much more impt that love.
zzzz.
This is a complaint post. skip it if you hate complaints.
freak.
i m like a begger.. going around begging for people's PW stuff when PW is long over. Like 1 yr ago? 12 months. 52 weeks. 365days.8760 hours.525600mins.31536000secs!!
here is the story..
my mom told me someone needs the pw stuff needs me to get it from who ever i know.
so i was like.. ok pw stuff.. i will try.
so i msg a classmate and asked.
so he said ok.. and i said thanks.. duh.. i m a polite guy..
and its a couple of days already he haven send it.. i dun like to pressure people into sending it to me.. so i just gave him a kind reminder.. and hopefully he is free to send me soon.
then my mom is like keep pestering me abt the thing.
i was so irritated.
cuz this is not my freaking commitment to help ppl collect PW stuff and send it.
pw is long over for me.
i m doing it voluntarily and so stop pressuring me for it.. cuz if ppl is bz to pass it to me i cant do anything.
its not my fault and its not anyone's fault! so stop asking me crap abt it.
cuz i m definitely not obliged to help anyone.
but being a damn nice guy i decided to try helping but if i fail is also not my biz.. cuz there isnt an ISO 9002 'satisfaction guaranteed' stamp on my head.
and i m doing it voluntarily for free and i m not obliged to do it.. so there shdnt be any applying of pressure on me to submit my task. And i should not pressurize those helping me to send it.
so if ppl dun send it there's nothing much i can do except to sit infront of this comp and type this post.
ok luckily cherky is kind enuff to reply and say he can help me out. so thanks alot man!
or else i might just die here.
